Diversion

stuck in a teaching

2012-01-27T15:34:00.001+08:00

Havent slept in any class for so long... But seriously... Its so damn boring i think i can just die peacefully.... If hubbykins were here, i bet she would have her tongue sticking out by now... :-P

Hehehehe...

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the glutton that we are

2012-01-26T20:21:00.001+08:00

Guess where we had our dinner?

Weeeee....!!o_O

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losing my mojo..

2012-01-26T15:28:00.001+08:00

The great thing about having my new baby i.e my note is that i can nlog all i want... Anytime... Anywhere.. Coz its android so they havr application for blogger that makes it easier to blog... Yayness!!!

So save to say... There's no reason not to...

But the thing is... I just realised that many times i find myself opening the application, looking at the keypad all set up to type something... Heck, to crap just about anything and i there i was.... Staring blankly at the screen not knowing what to crap. I had to think of what to say.... Like, is that possible???

Dammit!

Im losing 'it'

Im losing my......my........ Mojo!!!!!

Nooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!

And just who do i blame this on?

My job of coz! Ripping my soul to pieces... Shredding it to pieces like it doesnt matter at all... Turning me to the person that im not like i dont matter at all.

Sob..... Sob....

Im losing my mojo and sadly.... Myself....

But after everything that has been said.... I guess i havent really lost it all, havent i?

Haha.....

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not working...

2012-01-15T16:21:00.001+08:00

Oh dear....

Dont say i didnt try. I did.... And its just not working!

So im gonna settle for something smaller...... And lighter than that...

And when u compare those two... This is what u get...

Yea... What was i thinking???

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cutie!

2012-01-15T11:46:00.001+08:00

So cute arent they??

Hehehe

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harder to breathe

2012-01-12T17:13:00.000+08:00

I mean it...
Literally speaking

I was up at 1am then again at 2am gasping for air!
And that people, is the price im paying for being ignorant and lazy.
So today, i decided to pay a visit to the pharmacy and put that i-need-to-run-to-the-ward-ASAP face and got one of the pharmacist to get me my meds. No need to queu! (perks of becoming a staff). Hehehe....

So now, im gonna make myself useful and im gonna HIT THE YYM!

Haha...
How bout that,fella?

Ok then, chioz!

first day at SCN

2011-11-12T10:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my first day tagging at SCN. it was busy, in a different way i guess... but it all made me realise why i liked O&G. i love infants!

they're these cute little creatures who have just seen the light of day. so pure and so harmless. i dont know, its hard to describe. i remember when i was working in the labour room. the feeling of seeing a baby being born in front of me. its almost..... surreal.

now that im in SCN, i get to work with them. but i dont really like it though. i find it very tedious. can u imagine having to prick them for blood? oh dear God, it takes agessss for it to drop one at a time into the bottle. its exasperating! and the worst part, it keeps getting clotted. i mean, obviously it"ll get clotted. having to wait for it to drop into the bottle like that! then you're gonna have to repeat again. what the.......

so yeah, my conclusion to all this?

i like infants, but i only like playing with them. i like to hold them, wrap them up but not poking them. thats a pain!

came back home at 11 last night (so much for hoping that we can leave early), had my late dinner and crashed.

today, i gotta study. sigh.... doing my CEX and CBD next week. hope things will be okay.
alright then. time is precious.
bubye!

updates, updates and mooooreeee updates!

2011-11-07T19:12:00.000+08:00

hey bloggie :)

many things have taken place. many huge things in fact. i was just browsing through the old entries, made me realise how much ive missed those times. some things may look so insignificant but when you look through the pictures and what it represent to you at that time made you realised how much you've missed the old times.

well, so many things i dont even know where to start.

for a start, ive moved to a new place. where is it???

its a very nice place and fairly spacious as my old place. i must say that i like it here.and the best part its like 15 minutes away from work! cooooliooooo!!! i can leave home at 7am (my time) and reach work at 7am plus 10 to 15 minutes walk and to find parking so i'll be in the ward by 7.15 to7.20am. cool huh??

plus the place has many facilities (which i have yet to explore) man, keep telling myself that i'll do it one of these days but i kept forgetting and the next thing you know its already been a month and i havent explored anything at all. sigh....

other than that, now im in paediatrics. completed O&G, medical and now im in paeds. fretting over my assessment right now. seriously, i have no idea how im suppose to approach Tajul for my assessment. the thing is, i dont think the man hates me. i mean, you will surely know if someone hates your guts right? i think he just likes to pick on me. but the thing is, will he pass me? apart of me believes that he will never go to the extend as to fail me but deep down the small little teeny weeny peek-a-boo hole in my heart is wondering if he would?

urgh! i just hate being picked on! why cant he just leave me alone?

i dont even know when i should ask him to do my assessment. i just dont have the courage.
sigh.....
sigh........
sigh..............

well baby, its almost maghrib and mommy has to pray. mommy has to get all the help that she can get before facing Tajul.

more updates comin'!

chioz!

2011-03-16T07:06:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I woke up this morning with runny nose and cold :( what a way to start my day.

I have only one thing to say...

Dear God, let it be a good day today.

Yours truly,
The sneezing and cranky Doctor.

nurulkassim xoxo ^.^

Oh my....

2011-03-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is my call. Sigh...

Then EOD on Friday. Sigh...

Just when I thought I can have the weekend off, apparently I may have to work on Sunday. SIGH.....

And just when you think its all over, my next call is on..... TUESDAY! SIGHS.....

This is baddd..... :(
nurulkassim xoxo ^.^

go mama!!

2011-03-10T09:06:00.001+08:00

Currently my mama is in the OT at the Day Care Centre at PPUM for hysteroscopy and DD&C. Sigh... my poor mama... I hope everything goes well for her. I know its not a big procedure but its the findings that afraid of. hope its just the retained endometrial wall from her last menses.

But the good thing about today is that I'm on leave!! yayness!!!

If all goes well with mama today, it will be a great day for me :D

Then back to work again tomorrow and trying my best to avoid Iswaran for the rest of the day. hehehehe...

Oh did tell you what happened yesterday? oh brother, that guy sure has nothing better to do with his time. there was, pushing the car that was double parked in front of my car (with the help of my hero of the day, Alvin) then all of the sudden I noticed there was a merc stopped right next to me and window rolled down and lucky me, its Iswaran!

"I want to see all four of u tomorrow"

Oh brother.... why can't he find better things to do with his life other than finding ways to make our life miserable?? the last time we were suppose to have the meeting, he totally forgotten about it and there were waiting for him for an hour (as if we've got nothing better to do with our lives) then when we called him to remind him, he told us to come again at 5pm! erm..... halllooooo that is off working hours and some of us were postcall at that time!

So in the end, I didn't go coz Dr. Renu was having her rounds at 4.30pm (that woman another case, rounds at 4.30pm???) so was saved from his viva.

Somehow I have a weird feeling that he's gonna call me to meet him personally since I'm on leave today. and why the hell does he recognize my face???

What have done in the past to deserve him as my mentor? :'(

Ps: hope mama is okay in there :)

Hitting the books

2011-03-06T07:33:00.000+08:00

Time flies... Really...

I can still remember the first day I started work in HKL. How clueless I was at that time.

Then I started learning new things, understanding how things work, the procedures and everything..

The next thing I know, I was in the scanning room helping Dr. Nathan with pre-op assessment and he asked me, "When is your assessment?"

Dammit! Its already been 2months???

And I don't know crap!!

I should start hitting the books. No more delay Nurul!!! Go, go, go!!!

Ps: when I think about my number of calls this month, I swear to God I can feel tears streaming down my face :'(
nurulkassim xoxo ^.^

Need to talk!

2011-02-15T08:43:00.001+08:00

I am a person who needs to talk to someone most of the time. Or if I have to be alone, I need to be in my own space, by myself coz there's a big chance that I'll be talking to myself. That is how talkative I really am.

I need to verbalise my thoughts most of the time or else I'd go crazy! That's where my mama and my dearies comes in handy. My condolences to them for having to listen to my craps and rantings most of the time. You see the big sacrifices they do for me? That's why I HEART them!

Now I'm at EPAU by myself and wondering, do I prefer the almost non-existing workload or the non-companionship?? Obviously I can't be talking to myself now with all the staff nurses and the medical officers going in and out. Next thing I know, they'll be staring at me and asking, "Are you nuts?"

That would be great for my image as the arrogant and a crazy doctor to top it all up.
Hahahaha....
nurulkassim xoxo ^.^

Easy breezy sunday

2011-02-13T16:44:00.001+08:00

Guess what I'm watching right now?

Puteri Impian :D
Yup, tv3 is showing Puteri Impian today. Hehehe... I can still remember when it was shown in cinema back then, I think I was like erm..... 12 years old?? Hahaha...

My friend and I went to GSC Sunway Pyramid to watch the movie. Btw, that was like our fav lepaking spot at that time. Hehehe....

Seriously, its like walking down the memory lane... Life was as easy breezy as today's sunday....

*sighing away*

Ps: I miss my people. Hope they can make it tonight.

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Testing testing

2010-11-19T12:40:00.000+08:00

This was taken during Adam Lambert's Glamnation tour at Bukit Jalil Indoor Stadium. Just want to see if I can attach photo in a post. Hope this works!
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Tumblr

2010-11-08T02:09:00.000+08:00

Check out my new blog at www.poisedgal26.tumblr.com :D Its great!! I can blog from my blackberry. I can upload from usual text posts to pictures, audios, videos to quotes all via the tumblr apps on my phone!

I wish blogger can do this too... Its hard to blog via email :( I love this blog so much! Part of my life is kept in here so there's no way I'm deleting my bloggie :D

I love u baby bloggie... Will always do... Xoxo ;D
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Fenin... Fenin!

2010-08-26T09:47:00.000+08:00

U know what time I got up this morning? 7am. Well actually 630am coz I was tossing and turning on my bed (which is not covered thanks to the vanilla coke that spilled on my bed and my bantal busuk last night.*sob!)

So many things on my mind. My furnitures to sell, my bus ticket that's going to be burned and my mum wanting to stay for a week in kangar. Haih!!

This is me. I like to worry my heart out.

The best part, Mont is least worried! Boleh??! Haih... Lg la I pening :(

And now I'm sleepy. Great!
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Opthal oh opthal... Lagi

2010-08-24T11:53:00.000+08:00

Kaka punye keja...
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Opthal oh opthal

2010-08-24T11:33:00.000+08:00

I'm in opthal nw. Currently rotting in class. Boringnye... Yes, so bored that I can have the time to write an entry to dearie baby bloggie.

You know what I think?

I think its time to get away. Away from the surrounding, the environment but most importantly the people. Believe me when I say this, even if you're stuck in a jungle or stranded in an island, sure ure stressed up and everything (I mean who doesn't?) unless ure Tarzan or Robinson Crusoe heck, even Crusoe left the island. So back to the topic, even if you're stuck anywhere in the world but if you have a great bunch of people surrounding you or even just one good company with you, you will feel at ease and for all you know, you might be having the time of your life! But if you're surrounded by boring people and you've got nothing in common with them, then rest assured that you will die of boredom and the next thing you know you'll running away, running for your life.

Then again, if you spend too much time with the same people, over the time you'll get too comfy with one another, then the mask will slip away, revealing the dark side of them you never imagine they had, then there's the expectation from one side (where they expect the other side to accept them as who they are) and the tolerance from the other side (they're taking it all in coz they feel like they only have each other to count on). So that's how it is for some time...

Until the ones with tolerance snaps and realise that he has no more to spare.

Then, there comes the war...

And the fun ceases...

And you feel like running away...

-The End-

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Will I ever be able to say...

2010-06-26T03:56:00.000+08:00

Often life surprises you in many ways. You develope a habit, thinking that perhaps things will never change. Maybe this is it!

Then, the truth unveils... Leaving you stunned, speechless, wounded and utterly helpless. You search for comfort knowing that you've got no one but yourself. Looking around... Looking for familiar faces who'll probably understand yet knowing you could trust no one. At the end of the day, you only have yourself to count on.

As the day passes by, there you are, sitting all alone in the corner of your room, standing in the middle of the crowd, lost in your own thought, consoling yourself that everything will be alright, believing for just a moment that things will be alright before your mind tells you not to believe what you want to believe.

In the midst of all the misery, you finally saw a familiar hand. One you've forgotten. One you've left behind...

You recognized the hand of God.

Not knowing where to start, not knowing what to say, abased by yourself, knowing that you're unworthy for His hand, realizing that you are filthy and loathsome, you bow down for forgiveness, hating yourself every second of your life for asking too much and offering nothing in return. A despicable slave that you are!

And yet, He held His hand to you. He unleashed you from your misery. He showered you with love, overwhelmed your heart with joy and happiness but still offering nothing in return, on your part.

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Look what I found!!

2010-06-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

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Temperature update

2010-05-19T12:14:00.000+08:00

31.8 degrees @ 12 noon! Hehehe
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Etiqa express

2010-05-18T01:25:00.004+08:00

Why etiqa wasn't my choice for quite some time was because,

The bus is never on time and the seat is not working coz they're using the old bus from duta to kangar ~~(despite how spacious it is compared to sani)~~.

on addition to that, the bus arrives late to its destination coz they're taking their own sweet time! like today, i arrived at 8.15am and my class starts at 9am!! urgh!!

So nurul, please take note. Thank you.

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What am I suppose to say?

2010-05-17T15:39:00.002+08:00

When people tell me that their parents have 6 cars parked at home, or their parents bought 8 houses straight or they have insurance worth 1mil USD and things like that, I seriously don't know how to respond. Its because, I can't imagine why you would want to tell these things to other people. What makes you think that people want to know anyway?

Okla, maybe some kaypohcees out there would want to know but you should know who you're talking to right? You don't tell these things to people u hardly know, what more to people you just met for the first time. Even if u know them, its not something you tell people unless you're in a situation where you are required to declare your properties or you come across a topic that is related; which is enough by just mentioning without further elaboration.

So when people say these things to me, my standard answers are, "oooh!", "great!", "good for you" and my last resort is "hehehehe" though I don't have any idea how that would apply to the conversation :(
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sutun...

2010-05-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

"Rasalah nasi goreng sutun nie. mak sutun yang buat.."

hehehehe..... ;)

here in my home...

2010-05-15T15:40:00.000+08:00

here in my home... i'll tell you what its all about :D

its all about the cat fight going on between these two. hehehe... reminds me when i used to fight like crazy with fatin. farnee.... well it wasnt funny back then i tell you. i was so depressed and angry, i cant even see her bed! haha... but that was then...

tapi nie dah sampai threaten and tumbuk and everything, how la?? chronic dah nie...

my mama was like, "nie dah takde chance nak baik lg dah nie," to quote an ex-good friend 'gaduh secara tidak professional'.

the idea is so simple, if you dont like someone, whatever they do, even the littlest things will piss you off. si S nie pun, nak gaduh depan-depan la cakap, nie cakap belakang. camana E tak bengkerk sampai nak tumbuk muka S. hehehehe...

yang si H tu pun, bukannya nak tolong jadi pendamai, tolong tgk ada la... siap cakap let them fight, kalau ada yang dah takleh bangun dia nak pegi kt org tu and count to 3 (ala-ala wrestling camtu) then take his belt bagi kat winner. boleh?? giler sume orang dalam rumah nie...

E nie pun sampai call mak kat kampung sume.. haih... susahla camtu. tu belum bagitau sume orang kat office dia gaduh ngan S. fenin!!!

my mama dah speechless.
hehehehehe...

joke of the day...

2010-05-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

An Amish boy and his father were visiting a nearby mall. They were amazed by almost everything they saw, but especially by two shiny silver walls that moved apart and back together again by themselves.
The lad asked, "What is this, father?"

The father, having never seen an elevator, responded, "I have no idea what it is."

While the boy and his father were watching wide-eyed, an old lady in a wheelchair rolled up to the moving walls and pressed a button. The walls opened and the lady rolled between them into a small room. The walls closed and the boy and his father watched as small circles lit up above the walls.

The walls opened up again and a beautiful twenty-four-year-old woman stepped out.

The father looked at his son anxiously and said, "Go get your mother."

Alamak!

2010-05-14T17:51:00.001+08:00

My bus stopped at bukit gantang for a short break. I, who was dying to go to the toilet was sooo happy that the bus finally stopped. The moment the door opened I quickly got down the bus and headed straight to the toilet.

The things is, I'd rather use the sitting toilet rather than the squatting one regardless of unhygienic they claimed to be (lord help me but I don't want to think how those shoe marks landed on the toilet) I'd rather take a bunch of tissue papers, arrange them nicely and sit on it. I knew the only cubicle with the sitting toilet in bukit gantang is the LAST cubicle.

So, obviously I hurried to the last cubicle. I noticed that it wasn't locked so I pushed the door. To my horror and surprise, I saw a pair of legs and an underwear!!!

Damn!! I closed the door immediately, apologised and went into another cubicle real fast hoping that I WON'T bump into that woman!

Just my luck... :s
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uh-oh...

2010-05-14T10:11:00.002+08:00

i woke up this morning when surender called just to tell me that class today is cancelled. can you believe this? if i knew its gonna be cancelled i would have taken yesterday's bus back to KL. WTH! urgh! one day wasted...

ps: now have to go and meet yu tat at 11 to take my pen drive. that one's another case... he's been keeping it for a month! haih.....

new look :)

2010-05-14T00:42:00.002+08:00

Ta-da!!

pimped my bloggie didnt i?? hehehe... i thought its been awhile since ive changed the templates, to tell you the truth, i really love the notebook template but its been too long and i think its time for a new look. so i chose something less fancy... very simple yet cute :)

then after that, there was all the technicalities of choosing the right gadget to put on my page. i thought since ive already had most of my albums uploaded to Picasa, i might as well just put the gadget on my blog. after all the hard work trying to make all my albums public, all i can see on my page was this,

can you see how TINY that was???? what kind of photostream is that? i tried changing the size and yet its still the same tiny weeny clips! urgh!

so i deleted it off and waived all the fancy ideas of putting my album on my page. then there was the Meet Joe Black quote,"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived," Meet Joe Black, 1998. oh, i soooo love that quote... my all time favourite. as much as i love it, i think its time to find a new inspirational quote. not that ive found a new one just yet. takes time... numwutamsayin??? *wink!

all these time i havent been blogging i think ive missed out so much of my life. its like things come and go and ive forgotten half of it. there were times when i was trying to recall something so hard that i regretted all the moments that i did not cherished here. so many things have happened. there were good moments, wonderful moments and awful periods of time and too bad i didnt save it all here. i hope i wont be missing out on anything again... though i know that im sooo incapable of keeping my promises, at least if i try to capture as much as i can while im on it, thats got to count for something right? ;)

PUBLIC HELL

2010-04-27T14:04:00.002+08:00

Im bored! All these theories on sebab-akibat crap is killing me. It’s a miracle how a person can crap for hours about epidemiology as if it’s the upmost interesting crap to talk about! UH-OH…. HERE COMES MODEL RODA. Borriiiing!

The thing is… they are all the same species. I think during the years they took to earn their masters, one of the things they were taught about was on how to talk for hours and hours non-stop, and the worshipping of all the theories. There are just tooooo many theories! And the sentences they use to express themselves… for example, last week 's lecturer told us, " makan itu adalah satu suasana yang menyenangkan dan bukanlah satu penyiksaan," (ayat takleh blah!)

Cant they use laymans' language to explain things?? And that’s not even a medical term to begin with!! AMAZING.

Its 12.30 now, and this woman is making us search for infants mortality rate, then suruh connect to LCD pulak, so that everyone can see. Haih! Ada jer kerja dia ni tau! Purni cakap tikah pakar cucuk-mencucuk!! Hehehehehe!!!!!

On a totally different note, ACMS has an office at KL Sentral! Oh my! Nak recruit org lalu lalang ker??? Hehehehehe…… (rupanya kata fatin dah lama ada. Hehe… my bad, my bad :) )

Haih… I tried connecting to the wi-fi here in hostel tapi dari tadi…

Screen clipping taken: 4/20/2010, 12:20 PM

Then it got disconnected :((

Here's something to think about…

>>> Its so easy to talk… but can you walk the talk?? For those who finds this too challenging for their pea-size brain, (which include those yang pura2 faham, tapi tak faham pun…) it means… JANGAN CAKAP JER , BUATLAH… :))

Tapi bila surah buat baru nak senyap… camana tu?? Kalau tak dia la yang paling heboh! Grrr…..!!!

excuses.. excuses... excuses!

2010-04-27T13:29:00.000+08:00

We all give excuses... and we all detest those who give excuses.

I myself admit that i do give excuses. especially when im in denial and for some unexplainable reason i find myself having to justify myself to others; which is another sign of me being in denial. but when i finally got out of that denial mode, i always hated myself for doing that. simply because, you treat unto others how you want to be treated. if u dont like it, then dont do it to other people. which is why, in the end i usually come back crawling to that person for forgiveness... typical me.

so here's the thing. it takes two blardy idiots to tango. the person who initiates the flirtation is obviously gatal, and you who accomodates him are equally gatal. so, why blame it on him?? and true enough, you are gatal. furthermore, if my memory serves me right, you urself said that you are gatal. so why getting all worked up and giving stupid excuses as if we're all idiots???

if u cant keep ur itchy hands to urself, then dont blame other people when they trash talk you behind urback when you obviously gave them lots of things to talk about!

im telling you, some idiots really get on ur nerves!

Tempt update

2010-04-16T15:06:00.000+08:00

@ 252pm; 39.7•C (WTH!!)
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My poor Berry

2010-04-16T14:00:00.000+08:00

I dropped my Berry this morning, on the floor while making up my bed! My poor stormy :(( nak nangis! :'(

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My addiction to facebook

2010-04-16T13:46:00.000+08:00

Can u believe it?? I can't believe it myself :(

Its funny that nowadays I find myself clicking straight on the facebook link on my chrome (which is the very FIRST link that appears just to show how frequent I visited facebook… make that a quadriple sighs plzzz!) the very moment my pc is connected to the internet. Haih… bad shape :( once I tried (I must add) SO HARD not to click on that irresistable facebook icon and I find myself not knowing what to do online!! Damnation!

I can't believe that I've turned myself into an fb addict… so plain, so ordinary! Oh, the pain!!! Sob, sob! :'(

I need to do something... I need to go bck to my roots n I damn well know that I should start here, my ever loving n willingly-waiting-no-matter-how-long bloggie :D mummy needs u more than ever ;)) hiks!

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Littlest things 1

2010-03-21T21:30:00.001+08:00

I hugged him.

"eh hun, tak sampai,"

"dahla b. Jumpa lagi!"

Lol~~ hehehe :)

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remind me next time....

2010-03-21T15:01:00.002+08:00

since the internet connection in this shitty land-of-nowhere is total crap, remind me next time to copy my post the next time im posting anything! grrrr!!!!!! stupid!! after all that, only the first 3 sentences were saved???

urgh!! menyampah!!!! wait till my contract is over, im soooo getting maxis broadband! benci la celcom broadband nie!! :S

Faith

2010-01-27T18:03:00.001+08:00

I've retwittered this but I thought its so interesting that its worth mentioning here..

"Attack against one faith is an attack against all faiths,"

Agree?

I wonder if those idiots who threw bombs at the churches (I can't recall exactly what they threw) actually understands what this means.

Even if they do, these morons are obviously a bunch of dumbasses who believe their way is THE ONLY right way and everyone must except it. As if we don't have minds of our own.

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Straight to the heart...

2009-11-28T10:51:00.001+08:00

I was helping my mum at the kitchen when nur kasih was on tv3. U know all this craziness towards the show? The ratings was over 3million viewers every week! So I was like... Ok, maybe I can check it out (though I already know the storyline, thanks to tiekah and fatin who were constantly updating each other)

So the part I was watching was the part when adam and katrina came home from australia after katrina had miscarriage and at the same time nur amina decided that she couldn't bear it any longer and was about to tell her parents the truth about her non-existant marriage with adam.

Adam and katrina was in the taxi when he took out a tudung from inside his bag and handed it over to katrina. She gave him a weird look, refused to wear it and she said, she would rather not be a hypocrite. Adam's reply to that was what interests me... "Kita tak perlu menjadi orang lain, tapi kita boleh menjadi seorang yang lebih baik,". We don't have to be someone else but we can be someone better...

I was quiet for awhile after hearing that... Forawhile there it was like a piercing straight to the heart. That was..... So true. Its just that its much easier said than actually doing it. I hope someday I will have the urge to be that better person. Not be forced into it...

Haih... Such a delicate matter...

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Mathematic that were not taught in school...

2009-09-12T14:11:00.002+08:00

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS

> > Smart man + smart woman = romance
> > Smart man + dumb woman = affair
> > Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
> > Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy
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OFFICE ARITHMETIC

> > Smart boss + smart employee = profit
> > Smart boss + dumb employee = production
> > Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
> > Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime
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SHOPPING MATH

> > A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs.
> > A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.
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GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS

> > A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
> > A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
> > A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
> > A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
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HAPPINESS

> > To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
> > To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.
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LONGEVITY

> > Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.
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PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

> > A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
> > A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.

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DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE

> > A woman has the last word in any argument.
> > Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
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HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED
> > Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next.." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

courtesy of purnima devi ;D

Hmm.....

2009-09-11T12:53:00.001+08:00

So today only husna showed up at the ward this morning. Ipit and amal datang buat catwalk jer... Then husna came to our ward, feeling all scared and stressed up coz the nurse was asking her where her friends are. In my mind, sure we can't rely on the 4 people to show up so my mind went straight to nadia la. Obviously coz she was there in the class when we were raving and ranting and she sure as hell sounds like she's a victim too.

So I msged her, "nadia, nie nurul. Kau tak datang ward ker pg nie? Ktorg tgk husna sorang2 kat ward. Korang nie biar betul. Semalam berkobar2 gile tak nak buat perangai...."

Before replying me she messaged husna first, nak mengadu la nie.... "Husna, nurul marah aku"

Then she replied this, "Aku da ckp kt husna aku dtg lmbt. ala,mcm la ko xpnah buat"

Hmm....... Pointing fingers to others now are we??

So I replied back, "Mmg la. Aku tak ckp yg ktorg nie rajin sgt. Tp aku fikir after what happened yesterday maybe things will be different for just one day. Dahla nadia...aku tak berniat nk marah kau pun. Bukannya aku rapat sgt ngan kau sampai nak marah2 sesuka hati...ktorg kesian kat husna jer..."

So in the end, NATO= no action, talk only.......

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WTH?????!!!!!

2009-09-10T14:13:00.001+08:00

We were at ward 5 then suddenly surender called purni telling us that dr. Khaled wants to see us. We were like, "oh no.....do we have to follow his ward round too?"

So we took our sweet time walking to ward 1 happily. Then, when we reached the ward, F2 was standing around dr khaled, so we joined them. Dr khaled who was talking to a pharmacist stopped turned to us and said, "I have decided that I will resign from being your lecturer. I will not teach anymore, you can find yourself a new lecturer to teach you,"

I was like WTH??????

Rupanya, he came this morning and asked if anyone completed their clerking sheet but apparently none of the six had clerked anything! Some of them had but they wrote in the rough paper when this dude wants it written in a proper clerking sheet. He went on about why these smarty pants who claimed to come at 815am (when actually they entered the ward at 915am) but cannot even manage to clerk a single case...seriously, I totally understand where he's coming from. This dude came in for ward rounds only to find the students wandering around the ward doing nothing and when being asked for the clerking sheet no one completed theirs...mana la tak marah!!

But then again, what about us?? This is obviously not our fault. How can we take the blame for someone elses mess?? That's just ridiculous! Seriously, we try so hard to please this dude. I even came back on a public holiday for my on call just not to get on his bad side. We're all trying so hard to make this right, and these mother fuckers are trying to ruin it all!!!

Dahla tak de rasa bersalah langsung! These morons don't think they did anything wrong at all! the walking vagina even said, "tak kisahla kalau dia tak nak ajar," obviously since he is a self proclaimed genius whereas all of us are 'bodoh' (which was his very own words). If he thinks that he's damn smart and that he didn't need the consultant then that's his problem. He can go see the consultant himself and tell him that he won't be needing his teaching and spare us the trouble...

But if you think that freaking hypocrite will ever have the balls to do that, lemme me tell you this, that idiot don't even have enough balls to spare for himself!

Marahnyer dengan mangkuk2 tu! Selfish gile.....

Gosh, and to think I still have a month and a half with these people. Oh brother....

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Fw: First entry via email

2009-09-07T14:06:00.000+08:00

Previously I tried with cloak & dagger and guess what??? It worked!!! Hahaha.....my KEJAKUNAN!!!

Will upload the picture of my brand new baby soon :) but first thing to do is to borrow camera from jaja. Sure my baby can snap photos too but just with his 3.2 megapixel it won't do justice to him...hehe....

Ok...laters! Wanna try twitter plk ;)

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-----Original Message-----
From: poisedgal26@gmail.com
Date: Mon, 7 Sep 2009 05:54:41
To: <poisedgal26.jiggy.bubba@blogger.com>
Subject: First entry via email

Hehe...I'm so jakun! This is my entry using my new baby storm :) just trying it here before I start posting to diversion....

Testing. Testing!! One two three! Hehehe.....I'm so lame ;)
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MIA GOT A JOB @ 8TV!

2009-08-29T09:58:00.004+08:00

and guess how she got it??? all thanks to twitter!!!

haha....yeaps people. twitter alright??? who would have thought!

{me going GREEN with ENVY}

so here's what happened.. she quitted her job, then she posted something like, "hey i just quit my job. astro 8tv got any job for me???" then, all of the sudden, someone from 8tv tweet her back and asked her if shes still interested, gave her an email add to send her resume to, which so happens to be Paul Moss's.

so she sent her resume to Paul Moss and he informed her that her resume is being forwarded to all the various dept. at 8tv and to come to the office on monday. finally yesterday, she told us that SHE GOT THE JOB!!!

{me going SUPER GREEN with ENVY.....GRRRRRR!!!}

yes, she got the job....

she'll be working at 8tv.....

and im so HAPPY for her.....truly, deeply for the bottom of my heart.....IM SO HAPPY FOR U MIA!!

{still....with a twinge of jealousy yang membuak-buak!!}

but when i think of all the free passes u can get for us! auuwwww.......I <3> U!! (btw, this idea came from ur yong)

though i'd kill myself first before i ever confess in here why im so damn envy of her!! sigh 100X!!!

so difficult...

2009-08-27T22:02:00.004+08:00

as i walked back into my house, somehow i feel so gloomy and withdrawn. trying to dismiss the thought from clouding my mind , i tried going online, tending my farm, watching The Mentalist...but heck, even that gorgeous Patrick Jane cant seem to work his magic on me this time.

so i decided to sit back, take a deep breath and think....why do i feel like this? or better yet, what exactly do i feel right now??

answer is........LONELY.

yes, i feel so lonely right now....

why do i feel lonely all of the sudden?

which brings me to another question, which i believe is the core to all my trouble...

have you ever feel like, the longer u know someone, the more it seems like u dont knw a thing about them?? like, oh my god....its getting so difficult to just.............................TALK.

what happen to all those time u used to spend together?? what about all those time when being together seems like the most natural thing to do? what about that??

in the end, i still dont know what to do. but at least i know whats wrong with me.....we'll take it from here.....slowly.

so real.....

2009-08-24T23:49:00.004+08:00

mm hmm....so real alright.

its almost scary actually....being read as if u are like a piece of paper.

which brings me to this, do you believe that there are people out there who are just gifted in the sense that they can read someone just by looking? like they can tell the type of person you are, ur wishes, ur fears, ur hopes and dreams??

sure, i believe in miracles. but still, a little scepticle here....

for all you know he is all that he says he is...

life works in mysterious ways doesnt it? ;)

terawikh @ kangar

2009-08-23T22:21:00.003+08:00

2 words for you...........MACAM ROKET!

and im NOT exaggerating.

seriously, no doa(s) in between....senyap jer..... macam ada mutual understanding in between the imam n jemaah. saling faham memahami. mantap sungguh org kangar nie :D

habis solat isyak i thought ada tazkirah in between, tiba2 i heard "Allahuakbar!" oookay...so terus mula terawikh.

then, after the first 2 rakaat, usually kan ada some short prayers in between, ni tak.....terus habis jer bagi salam, imam bangun and terus mula the next 2 rakaat.

lepas tu, i thought okla, nie mungkin ada tazkirah pendek (i mean, ive been to medan and it was the same drill as KL) but to my surprise and horror-ness the imam got up and terus cakap "Allahuakbar" Oh no!!!! sambung terus macam roket!

and yes, that went on sampai la ke rakaat ke-8. fenatnyer diriku ini, on the way nak tachycardia rasanyer.....

i wonder, kalau makcik2 n pakcik2 tua at my house datang sembahyang sini, ntah2 kena bagi beta-blocker dulu takut kena heart attack! hehehehe!!!!

farnee....

i dont understand!

2009-08-21T19:10:00.003+08:00

im confused here! someone please enlightened me...

so u kinda cheat the lecturer. u took another lecturer's slide show and presented it as ur own. another colleague told the lecturer what u did, but because she likes you so much (partly because the woman is senile...) so she just closed an eye on u. in the end, u got the highest score in the class so from the way i see it, you've got nothing to lose....

so tell me, why is it that u have to make it such a big issue???

why, the fact that u dont like it when people tell on u??? dahla u always got away

with all the shit that u pulled, so forgive me if other people who has to slave their asses off to get anywhere near that score u got feels so annoyed with the whole thing.

like i said, its not our job to kiss ass.

its fine that u do that, but please....the fact that u boast about it, being all 'mengada' about it, just irritates the hell out of us!

dah memang u did it, admit jer la..... ni tak, nak marah2 pulak! if u said u were sorry, and that u were pressed for time and that was the only solution u could think of, at least takd

e la org terasa sangat! nie tak, boasting about it, pastu when people pointed it out nak mengamuk!

betul2 tak faham!!!

ITS NOT MY JOB TO KISS ASS!!

2009-08-21T01:12:00.003+08:00

seriously!!!! mengada-ngada gile la.....

dah la BITCHES like a girl!!!

hypocrite like hell!!!!

pakcik misai pangkat sarjan :D

2009-08-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

so we were at KFC awhile ago, coz we wanted to treat ourselves before puasa starts. then, there were the two of us just chatting away, enjoying our meals...

lemme tell u this, if u know aireena, she can tell u some crap and make u laugh ur head off! yeaps, that good i tell you. so she was telling me some hilarious stories about her funny little brother and of coz, me being me was laughing at her stories coz it was so damn funny!

then suddenly, i heard a voice ahead of me, shouting something like...."Oi!" OR "

hei!" so i looked up and saw this man who was glaring at me, followed by a number of heads turning to us and that moment it hit me that he was angry coz i was laughing out loud! hahahahaha!!!!!! now, that was a first!

so pakcik misai pangkat sarjan nie was angry coz we (but i think its mostly me) was laughing oh-so-loudly! and the funny part was, i dun even think i was 'that' loud....seriously, if he sees my friends or better yet, if he ever sets foot in the restaurant while my groupmates are around, hahahahaha.......pengsan la pakcik tu!

thats not all. after aireena and i was done with our story, we got up to wash our hands and when we turned around, we noticed he had his whole family to turn around to look at us!

man....marah sungguh pakcik misai nie nampaknyer!

cool okay pakcik.....just chill ;)

ps: nasib baik meowth was facing the wall...kalau dia nampak muka pakcik tu, n muka org2 yg pusing pandang our table, stress la nampaknyer meowth nnt. hehehe.....

Potong Saga!

2009-08-17T23:03:00.003+08:00

this was linked to me by a friend...

watch it! its hilarious!!

so, here's some info about the film (taken from 15MALAYSIA)

"15Malaysia is a short film project. It consists

of 15 short films made by 15 Malaysian filmmakers. These films not only deal with socio-political issues in Malaysia, they also feature some of the best-known faces in the country, including actors, musicians and top political leaders. You may think of th

em as funky little films made by 15 Malaysian voices for the people of Malaysia."

and yes, just like what they said.....its free movies for everyone. you wont be charged single dime ;)

p/s: i would luuuurrrveeeeee to watch all the movies but damn, im pressed for time! st

upid radiology crap to be sent by tomorrow! damn....

various meanings of Douche Bag

2009-08-15T20:41:00.003+08:00

douche bag

(n) {French, fr. Italian "doccia"}
1. An object used for vaginal hygeine.

2. A person that is a tot

al moron and doesn't think before he/she speaks or acts.
3. One with an undescribeable idiocy, hence stupidity, poor idea of what's cool, possibly an arrogance about them.4. One with an intolerable personality.

5. Somebody who you think is a complete retard and doesn't know anything about what they're talking about.

6. Someone who; talks shit, starts shit, wont finish their shit, &&and the end of the day still thinks they own the universe. closely related to; asshole.

7. Individual, or individuals who piss you off on good days, and piss you off even more on bad days.

Examples:

1. A vaginal cleaning is simply incomplete without a proper douche bag.

2. Douche bags have been known to add small numbers with calculators and call it "business math."

3. Man oh man, a crowd of complete loser douchebags just rolled into the club and not sirprisingly, all the women rolled out the other side and left. Now it's a giant sausage fesitval and we are all screwed. Guess I'll go write a rap song.

4. "God, he walks around and acts like hes the best thing in the world when really no one likes him. what a douche bag."

5. What a stupid Douche Bag, he has no clue what he is talking about!

inspirational quote

2009-08-15T18:26:00.004+08:00

"Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves,"

-Carl Jung-

how true that is.....

especially at times like these when im constantly annoyed at something or somebody...

gosh!

i wish i can be more igno

rant. theres another saying that goes, " what doesnt kill you will only make you stronger,"

so technically, if it doesnt matter to you, it wont bother you but if you look at it

as a lesson to be learned, it can make you a better person.

now moving on to the next question, how do i shut these things out of my radar and be able to say that it doesnt matter to me at all??? coz the thin

g is, even when it didnt concern me or even if it does a little, i tend to take it pretty hard and that just annoys the hell out of me. man.... see how things get complicate as we speak??? in addition to the fact that i feel like im slowly mutating my

self to be the person that i dont want to be...

in the end i know its about self preseverance. if ure strong on the inside, you'll not be easily swayed. maybe if i start pretending that it d

idnt matter to me, in time i should be able to actually BELIEVE that myself!

hahaha.......my ramblings!

MAK CONTOH OF THE YEAR

2009-04-09T01:42:00.003+08:00

a huge cricket landed on the floor...

"eweeeuuu.........besarnyer cengkerik tu! sayang, pegi makan benda tu cepat!"

oh brother, what kind of mother is that? asking the child to eat the cricket.....

i tell u, people nowadays....

sigh.....

and the story goes like this......

2009-04-08T23:58:00.005+08:00

this is the day, the moment of truth. deep down, she had always known that she couldnt put off the dreaded moment forever. its bound to come sooner of later. its now or never! oh, what was i thinking?, she scolded herself. but she realised, there is no turning back. time was not on her side.

as she waited in agony for her turn, she looked at all the cars that came back to the station. some came back with the same driver and some came back with a different driver. in short, they didnt make it. oh, she thought, she had been there before. not once but twice. the public humiliation of having to walk through the crowd who was staring at her, or at least she thought they were all staring at her and saying, "ala, ciannyer ngan budak tu... dia fail exam tadi. aku nampak org JPJ tu yg drive balik. cian...." oh, the pain!! she told herself.

what about the driving instructor? she recalled the conversation she had with the woman a couple of days ago. "nanti, awak buatla muka kesian kat pegawai tu. cakapla kat dia, nanti awak dah tak sempat nak ambik ujian lagi. mana tau dia boleh kasi pass,"

man, the woman must have thought, "muka budak nie, sedih betul aku tengok. dah ambik 2 kali exam pun still ketaq2. hmm...nak kena bagi tips la cam nie.kalau tak, sampai aku berjanggut pun tak pas2 lg...haha...." (evil laugh!) oh, aku dikutuk!!

finally, it was her turn. she walked slowly towards the car. all the tension is making her jittery. before she realised it, she was already climbing into the car. she climbed slowly, gasping for breath. do this right, oh please do this right! she kept reminding herself. then, the officer got into the car.

so she started with the seatbelts, the rearview mirror, etc....(sorry for the 'etc' writer has forgotten the drill, its been ages!!) and next thing she knows she was already on her way out of the station, onto the road.

yes, she was very afraid... she was contemplating, should she do it? how is she suppose to do it? where should she start? oh man......this sucks! she told herself. at the same time she was trying to focus on her driving. she cant afford to fail, she thought. she had already spent her own pocket money on this! 350 bucks for-god-sake! that's a month worth of food!!! all of the sudden, the courage that she never knew she had within her took control. her mind, body and soul is now.....one.

with no hesitation, the daredevil in her spoke, "encik, boleh tak tolong pass kan saya. saya dah 4kali ambik ujian nie. saya dah nak masuk matriks lepas nie. nanti dah tak sempat nak ambik ujian nie lagi.tolong la encik...tolongla..." she said, making the most pitiful face ever, spinning the tale of her sob story hoping that the officer would take notice.

the officer looked at her and said, "iye, saya cuba tolong. cuba drive baik2. tengok cermin.sekarang belok kanan, bagi signal dulu....pelan2..." in the end, the driving test became like another driving class for her and yes, for the first time after 3times taking the test, (walaupun dia cakap kat pegawai tu dah 4kali ambik test) she was the one who drove the car back to the station which of coz meant that she passed!! wow-eeeee, junior juice!!!!

but then, before leaving, the officer reminded her, "ha...nie saya bagi pass. kena practice lagi tau," dengan muka yang sedikit cuak, she nodded and left.....happily! for the first time, she was not walking the public shame coz well, she passed!! thats the most important thing!!

and with that, she walked happily to the office to inform them that she passed...

Dr Kimot In the House!!!

2009-04-07T00:28:00.004+08:00

happynyer!!!

kimah dah jadi doktor :D hehehehehe..............

okla, maybe im overly excited, but what the heck! my buddy is now officially a DOCTOR!!!

well for those u who have no idea how much that means well, lemme tell you this, it means everything!!! all the hard work for YEARS, which includes the sleepless nights, long hours of torture (by many people), continuous palpitations before and after examinations, aching legs (seriously, the hospital is already as big as it is and these doctors walk like they're in some walkathon or something! cepat gile!!! man, can they work those legs or what???!!) amongst other things has been paid off!! hahaha!!!

just the thought of it send chills down my spine!!

p/s: kimah, kau doakan aku pulak ok??? walaupun lama lagi nak grad....tp sentiasa jer dalam ketakutan :'(

pps: tomorrow got mid test for psych. still got tons of things to cover!!! *sob sob!!

arrghhhh!

2009-04-03T02:22:00.003+08:00

marahnyer!!!

some people are just born stupid arent they????? where the hell are their @*#%-ing brains?????

where is the rationale for not coming to ur *%&#-ing presentation, telling people to cover up ur $#!^ so that u can go to a very insignificant football match for the sole purpose of menggatal????

its absurd!!!! ABSOLUTELY BIZZARE!!!!

to top it all up, asking other people to go pick up her stupid assignment (dahla rumah jauh gile, totally out of the way) while shes lazying at home?????? ingat org lain kuli ker??? like we have no other things to do other than pleasing 'your highness'????

total bull*@!#

pi kahwin cepatla!!! gosh!

what we did for THAT ONE HOUR.....

2009-04-01T22:53:00.012+08:00

well, since kangar is very, very, very far away from capsquare and we know deep in our hearts that there is no way this magical land of nowhere will ever come close to capsquare so we decided to celebrate earth day our way...

lilin-lilin yang telah dinyalakan

as u can see, its very dark coz our friend here did not know how to change her camera to night mode. so, in the still of darkness our friend pun cuba mencari manual camera yang telah dibeli setahun lepas and evidently, manual itu masih dalam plastic yang belum dibuka lagi....cari punya cari but tak jumpa2 so in the end we tried without the flash and this is the end result.

in case if any of u is wondering what was that shadow above above the candle, its my HUGE ARM. its either because its the closest thing to the candle which explains why its so clear or the fact the its the biggest thing there!* sob2x!!

and the camwhoring session began......

kay zee in the dark :))

someone trying to be artistic here.....

pretty occupied we'rent we? ;)

Nur Anzelima Siregar...

2009-03-31T17:25:00.005+08:00

Losing someone is never easy.

especially when they are someone so dear to your heart.

after having to go through such a great loss, i thought nothing else will ever hurt me the same way again....

but i was wrong......

its never easy and the worst part, it will always remind you of your previous loss.

buat temanku yang sering mewarnai hari-hariku, walaupun untuk sebentar cuma. selamat tinggal Angel, semoga tenang disana.....

after so many times trying.......finally!

2009-03-31T06:28:00.004+08:00

OH MY GOD!!!! ive been trying over and over again to log in to blogger but i couldnt seem to log in! and its been weeks!!!!

and this is just a short one by the way, coz its 6.30am now and i was studying for my psych pretest at 9am later when all of the sudden i feel like trying my luck again using IE and it worked! haha.......

yes i know, i owe oh-so-many updates here...will be happily to oblige that just as soon as im done with my pretest (ada lagi satu topic nak cover nie...)

okla, duty calls! laters :))

getting to know myself better

2009-03-05T14:11:00.004+08:00

jaja tagged me on fb (http://www.quizbox.com/personality), but im just too lazy to log in to my fb so i post it here. its scary coz it pretty much describes me very well. especially the part bout being the listener and being scared to go into my professional career! hell, thats an understatement, its more like being terrified!! haha.....

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

the hardest choice...

2009-02-09T02:11:00.003+08:00

got this interesting quote from minekey,

The hardest choice involves letting go of someone you adore...

SO,

If you love her, date her. If you still love her, move in with her. If you still love her, marry her.

i thought that was so sweet ;D ...hehe..... *wink!

everybody ber-blog!

2009-02-01T00:38:00.004+08:00

its amazing really! most of my girlfriends have blogs! hehe..... and some of them are soooooooo rajin, its almost like wow! kimah has 46 posts in january alone!!!!! tu almost 2 posts per day!!!! mantap gle tu......hehe..... nie yg nak rajin ber-blog balik nie!

haha....but knowing me, rajin bermusim jer nie...... but hey, im always trying rite??? if uve been following then u'll know how much ive tried.

well, next week im back to school, so i guess i'll have more stories to share. u know how things are in my college rite? the never ending drama....

okies, until then....toodles!!

In the loving memory of.......

2009-01-28T12:18:00.004+08:00

This morning I got out of my bed and the first thing my mum said to me was, It has been 2 months since ur father left us.I didn’t know what to say to that, so I just kept quiet.

So many things had happened in the past 2 months. We moved on, just like he wanted us to. My mum is now doing what she does best, making kuih. I think shes doing great. Not only that it takes her mind off his absent but we’re making money too, which is very good! Who knows that making kuih brings in lots of RINGGIT??? Ka-ching ka-ching!! Well, at least its enough for the both of us.

In another story, my sister got married last Wednesday. It was a small ceremony but it got most of the family members together. I wasn’t around coz I was in medan. A real waste, I must say. Though I think it would have been a whole lot different if he was around. Its amazing really, to think just an absent of someone can change so much. in the end, we have to make do with what we have right? I now have a vague idea of how my wedding should be.hehe….

As for the rest of the family, I guess we are all doing great. Sure, we all have our ups and down but hey, that’s what makes life worth living right?

Now after 2 months, the only remaining of him is the memories he left us with. I still cross my parents bedroom, glancing at the door thinking that he will call me from his bed. I can still remember him saying, “Eh, eh! Nak pergi mana tu?” with his funny expression and his heart-warming smile, its almost like a dream. Even back then, the last 6days I spent in the hospital with him, I knew in my heart that was leaving us, very deep down within me I kept imagining how will my life be like without this man who was laying helplessly before my eyes. Can I handle it? Can I force myself to move on? How do I pick up the pieces? Where do I go from there? I cant even begin to tell u how tormenting that was. Even when I shed tear in front of him coz I just cant bear seeing him in pain, and he held my hand and said to me, “Jangan nangis,” God, if only I can do that…if only I can hide my tears and pretend to be as strong as him. Evidently, that’s one trait I did not inherit from him.

As the days passes by, I look at my family. There are just so many of us, regardless of whose womb we came from he was the one who brought all of us together. Even without his presence, the aura and the glue that sticks the family together is still there. I don’t know what will happen in years to come. Will we still be the way we are? Or will we be parting ways and never hear from each other ever again? I have no faintest idea…

If there is one regret that I have right now, is the fact that I didn’t tell him enough of how much I really love him. Despite all the arguments we used to have, he always has the best place in my heart. I hope he knows how much he meant to me.

When I was a baby, there he was, singing prayers to my ears, trying to get me to sleep. In the last days of his life, there I was, singing the exact prayers to his ears, to keep his mind on The Almighty and The Merciful. I hope someday, I can do the same thing to my child and hope that my child will do the same for me.

“Ya Allah, ampunilah dia, rahmatilah dia, ‘afiatkanlah dia, maafkanlah dia, muliakanlah persinggahannya, luaskan tempat masuknya, bersihkanlah dia dengan air salji dan air dingin, dan sucikanlah dia daripada segala kesalahan sebagaimana dibersihkan kain putih daripada kotoran, dan gantikanlah untuknya rumah yang lebih baik dari rumahnya, keluarga yang lebih baik dari keluarganya dan pasangan yang lebih baik dari pasangannya. Masukkanlah dia ke dalam syurga dan lindungilah dia dari azab kubur dan api neraka,

“Ya Allah, dia adalah hambaMu dan anak hambaMu yang sangat berhajat kepada rahmatMu, sedangkan Engkau Maha Kaya dan tidak berhajat untuk mengazabkannya. Sekiranya dia seorang yang baik, maka tambahkanlah kebaikannya, dan sekiramya dia seorang yang tidah baik, maka maafkanlah segala kesalahanya,”

~~~ so cute! hehe..~~~

what a loser!

2008-11-06T17:35:00.008+08:00

check out this site....http://cheongsamlover.wordpress.com/ or u can just click HERE.

WHAT A FREAK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

excuse me, but who the hell does he think he is? this freak, has the audacity to tell u whats wrong as if what he's doing is right! he thinks he's doing social service by putting this on the net? taking pictures of random people just because u dont agree with what they are wearing and publishing it on the net? n what the hell does that make him???? a freaking stalker i tell u that!

khidmat seks? just because theyre wearing short skirts??? and who is he to say that? u dun even see it with ur own eyes and u post such accusation?? unless he's been in the pusat kecantikan and got the treatment himself....gosh! damn irritating!

chinese pun nak comment?? let them be la! whats his problem??

i just dun understand, what is he trying to prove by doing all this? if u want to advise or for the purpose of reminding others, this is certainly not the way....it tainted the image of islam in front of others...

i think this dude has anankastic personality problem...

recent update, Monday Nov 10, 9pm:
and the blog has been suspended...thank god! hehe.........:))

things happened in the past few weeks...

2008-11-04T10:48:00.004+08:00

this is my flash updates for the past weeks of my disappearance...

spent last weekend with abang. i think ive overlook somethings in him that maybe i shouldnt have. made me appreciate the life im having now...actually, it made me appreciate my mum more than ever....
abah was admitted in the hospital...again! thankfully i was at home at that time, so at least i can help my mum. after 2 days (last monday if im not mistaken) he was discharged and i tink he's getting better now...
last week, i made this astounding discovery. and yes, i got palpitation the whole night! gosh, kept asking myself, why am i getting all jittery for? what am i looking for out of all of this? and did i find the answer? of coz not! in the end i figure, maybe i should just leave things at that forawhile...its tiring.....
and now my mum is sick. nothing serious of coz, just fever, cold and sorethroat. but im still worry bout her nonetheless. hope she recovers asap....though i know its not easy coz she has to look after my dad and thats not an easy job, i'll tell u that!
went to batu feringghi over the weekend to celebrate arveen's birthday (i'll post the pix once i got them) and it was fun! im definitely going there again....just have to figure out how to juggle my time..hehe....

so thats about it, will post pixies later.....have to bathe and read my notes! gosh, havent started anything at all, and exam is tomorrow! very la not bahagia......

HATE THE PLAYER??

2008-10-20T17:53:00.005+08:00

sometimes i just dont understand how human brain functions (In certain people). i wonder if they actually know the answer but keeps on asking why or they just choose not to know what seems to be an obvious answer. or is it only obvious to me but not to others? i just dont know...

i mean com'on, use ur logic.

here's the situation. u have a guy who obviously likes u. he's been showering u with gifts, gives u money (monthly it seems), takes u out on holidays, bla, bla, bla.... and u on the other hand knows from the start that u dont like him, do not have any feelings what-so-ever for him, yet u choose to be 'scandalous' (which means: involving stories about dishonest or immoral things that someone has done.....if only she knew what it really meant) which i'd rather call it a fling. so, ure not serious with him from the start, eventhough uve told him that u dont plan to OFFICIALLY go out with him (in other words, declaring to the whole world that ure involve with someone) its crystal clear that he doesnt get it, and he obviously wants more from u. and u know this! u knew it all along... even so, u keep in contact with him, answering his phone calls and messages even when u claim that ure sick of him, taking his gifts and money even when u say u didnt ask for it.

so lemme ask u this...

can we blame the guy for calling her continuously? even if she said it to his face that she doesnt like him, but yet she picks up his calls (even if she was pretending to be someone else) can u really blame the guy?

my logic is so simple. u dont like him, then stop answering his calls no matter how many hundred times hes calling u and stop taking his money. how hard can that be? theres no use complaining to other people, saying that ure being harrased by this man, when in reality i think shes the one whos looking for the trouble to begin with.

if u want to play the game, then i say play it well...so in the end of the day, u can proudly tell ur man "dont hate the player, hate the game," but if this is how the game is played, then how can u not hate the player?

WOMANIZER

2008-10-19T16:43:00.003+08:00

so britneys back with her latest single, WOMANIZER. CLICK HERE, TO CATCH THE VIDEO. i must admit, i am a fan. like her music. though i think she makes more sounds in most of her songs rather than singing it...hehe...

but i have a question though "must she get naked in most of her videos???" and tikah answered, "of coz she must, coz shes britney!" haha...and why didnt i think of that??

FIREFOX!!

2008-10-18T16:18:00.004+08:00

FIREFOX, OH FIREFOX!!!!!!

im mentally exhausted trying to figure out why my add-ons are not working!

spent the last hours browsing through the forum to see if i could find something, heck, anything to help me out. i mean, its totally weird right? i have it installed, even updated my browser to the lastest version, the add-ons pass the compatibility test but when i enable it, its not working! nothing happens!!!

strees!!!!!

then theres the add-on window. u notice the options button at the lower left? now, when i click on it, all of the sudden its making this weird sound (like an error or sumthing) then when i wanted to close the window, it wont close! in the end, i have to reboot my lappie to get rid of it....damn!

now that im using the latest browser, FIREFOX 3 (to quote; for a better and safer browsing...bla, bla, bla...) its starting to crash more frequently than it used to. man, overly protective like kaspersky! last night, i wanted to watch SEPI on you tube. ive watched the first 2 parts before, had the 3rd part uploaded at that time but i wanted to go to sleep so i exit and shut my lappie. and yes, it was working fine and dandy, AT THAT TIME. until last night......i was waiting for the 3rd part to be loaded when all of the sudden it crashed! then i restarted firefox and tried loading part 1 and again, it crashed! so annoyed!

and i think i am the only soul in my small little world whos facing this problem...everyone else's seems to be working perfectly fine!! just my luck!!

*scratching my head

2008-10-17T21:49:00.003+08:00

i was watching the news awhile ago, while waiting for my dinner to be served when i found out that out of the 73 Umno Youth divisions which have concluded their meetings so far, the movement's executive council member, Datuk Mukhriz Mahathir, has qualified to contest the post after he obtained 40 nominations.

KJ being the current Umno Youth deputy head has secured 20 nominations while the other two possible contenders, Datuk Seri Dr Mohamed Khir Toyo and Datuk Zahidi Zainul Abidin, have 12 and one respectively.To contest the post, one must receive at least 39 nominations. There are a total of 191 Umno Youth divisions all over the country so i guess we just have to wait and see...

this reminds me of the incident after march 8th, when everyone was so angry with mukhriz after he seconded his father opinion that paklah should take responsibility for BN's poor performance by stepping down as soon as possible. then there were the drama........

now, the dramatic irony is that, the man who was loathed 6 months back is the first man to obtain enough nominations to contest for the head post...even the current deputy head (who is supposedly well-liked by many) is still half way behind.

maybe its true that people cant change overnight but given a few months, dont get freak out to see that uve got the nation behind ur back! so, yes. life is full of little ironies...

thats politics for u. nasty little world but very interesting nonetheless...

btw, if ure wondering, im NOT PAID to write this ;)

BOOMERANGED

2008-10-09T00:32:00.005+08:00

Regret Today
By Catherine Pulsifer, © 2007

How many times do we say something that we immediately realized was not the right thing to say?
How many times do we look back on an event and think, if only I had....
How many times do we do something that we wish hadn't done?

You can't change what has been said.
You can't change a past event.
You can't change what has been done.

Do you call it regret, sorrow, repentance?
Do you think about what might have been?
Do you relive an event the way it should have been?

Forget about regret, and focus.
Focus on today, not on the past.
Focus on what you can do, not what you didn't do.

The only thing to regret is living in the past
The only thing to feel sorrow for is not living each day to the fullest.
The only thing to do to repent is to sincerely say, I'm sorry.

Don't live your life regretting yesterday.
Live your life so tomorrow you won't regret today.

to conclude, eventhough i felt like an idiot for a few hours, at least now im sure of what i really feel and how i should handle it. in the end i just have to accept the fact that, "some things can never be changed no matter how hard u try," well, at least i tried...

the things uve lost...

2008-10-06T02:39:00.006+08:00

i must admit that there are only a few people on this earth whom i really consider my FRIENDS. when i say FRIENDS, i mean real friends, not just the people around me or people whom i know for sure they exist(ed) in this world simply coz i know them by name. so, after sometime u look around and finally came to a realization that uve lost one of the few people u cherished most, at that moment u cant help but feeling....sorry....even worst, regret.

im sorry things turn out to be the way it is right now...

im sorry for all the tongue lashing, the arguements, the recriminations and the accusations...

im sorry that for awhile ive forgotten the friend u once were to me...

im sorry for not being a real friend that i should have...

i regret the day i decided to do what i fear most...

i regret that it takes the best of our friendship...

i regret that i let it go this far...

i regret i let it slip through my fingers...

and now i wonder,

is it too late to turn a new leaf?

EID MUBARAK PPL :)

2008-10-02T01:01:00.002+08:00

raya frenzy!

2008-09-29T19:14:00.001+08:00

let me tell u one thing about my mum. she asks u to do something, then she'll tell u how she wants it or something like "kau buat camnie, pastu camni.....ha, kau tau2 la," then she left...

then u do la camnie, then camtu the rest u tau2 la....after ure done, she'll come back to u n tell u how its different from what she has in mind, something like, "ala, bukan camni....buat camni la...," and she'll start modifying. so there u were, standing by her side to see what the hell is wrong with it now and seeing that she has already stared modifying, u presume that she'll finish it till the end...but lo and behold! the next thing u know, she hands u (in this case its a knife) and asks u, "ha....sambungla, tunggu apa lagi?"

haih stress!!!! bila la nak habis raya???

back home :))

2008-09-29T17:32:00.002+08:00

im back at home :))

yes, very happy...for the first time after almost 4 years, i get to celebrate my birthday at home with my parents and friends...and it was sure lotsa fun!!

right now, im busy helping mum out, preparing for eid and all...so it pretty much takes up my time. i have pixies of my handmade raya cookies to be posted later *wink wink! but that can wait right??

okay la...mama is cooking in the kitchen and it smells good alright! hehe....gooooooooood fooooooood!

laters ya'll! chioz ;)

buka puasa feast

2008-09-23T22:35:00.005+08:00

check out the fish tikah and i had been eyeing for weeks at impiana...

so yummy!!!

and yes, it was our 'everest' that night! its so crispy and del-i-cious!!! tak rugi our 28 bucks we spent on the fish...hehe...

and this is our table before buka puasa....

now, the aftermath........

yup, habis kesemuanye....

as for the fish...

haha...tinggal kepala jer....

my pendrive

2008-09-22T22:13:00.002+08:00

my pendrive is not working again! and its my third pendrive!!

i was thinking of posting my buka puasa feast but now seeing that my pendrive is suddenly undetectable, i think im gonna spend the whole night mourning for it....sob sob!

this sucks!!! and my friend just told me that maybe its spoil for good.........WTF????!!!

im soooooo NOT getting a new one!

THATS IT!!!!! so pissed!

new look ;)

2008-09-21T17:26:00.003+08:00

yup, new look for a new year ahead of me...hehe...

so what if im a few days earlier??what matters most is the initiative and the enthusiasm to look forward for a much more brighter and prosperous year ahead of me...ahh....the words of wisdom by muah!

hehe...yup, thats me being dramatic as usual.well u know what they say, "some things never change" ;)

me back here :)

2008-09-20T22:06:00.003+08:00

haloooooooo my beloved bloggy ;)

i know ive done a great job ignoring u but plz understand that mummy has tons of things going on in her life right now...mummy never forgets u, not even a minute. but medicine has finally manage to get mummy to study on her own (without being forced by anyone) due to constant reminder of how 'unknowledgeble' mummy is, (im softening the truth here, coz it hurts so bad!) thanks to the doctors at Kulim Hospital who didnt even have to try hard to do it!!

so yes, mummy studies everyday during weekdays and on weekends, mummy studies too or when theres free time mummy will take a break by watching tv etc, coz lets face it, mummy needs to regain her sanity right??

and mummy has so many things to share with u! so many things has happened lately, some of them are BIG in fact...if only mummy has more time to spend....sigh.....

but worry no more hunny bunny, from now on, mummy will try her best to update as much as possible, even if its just a few sentences in a post okay?

i guess thats all for now, mummys gotta go....will update tomorrow.
chioz, muaxxxxx!

love,
your ever loving mummy

darn those tables!!

2008-08-07T01:06:00.002+08:00

at the moment im typing with my eyes half closed coz im having conjuctivitis erythema, sneezing every 10minutes (seeing as it is, i know it's gonna be a paroxysmal one!), complete with nasal obstruction and i swear to god the palate of my throat is so damn itchy like hell! all thanks to the brand new tables in my room!

of coz i was damn happy when i saw it at first, but now, seeing that those bloody allergens (who knows what chemical they use to paint those tables) has been reacting happily with my IgE and causing massive production of histamines and the gang that in the end cause me a blardy ALLERGIC RHINITIS! damn!

ah well, im gonna continue with my notes now. got exam on friday! haih....not to mention that this morning was the 'first' day of my new semester...hehe...other people starts on monday but I, the self-proclaim VVIP starts on wednesday.....i can imagine my mama singing praises to me ;)

okayla, will be updating on my new room and my first week of the semester over the weekend. at least there's something to do this weekend...chioz!

true love by Wislawa Szymborska

2008-08-03T03:25:00.001+08:00

True love. Is it normal
is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?

Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,
drawn randomly from millions but convinced
it had to happen this way - in reward for what?
For nothing.

The light descends from nowhere.
Why on these two and not on others?
Doesn't this outrage justice? Yes it does.
Doesn't it disrupt our painstakingly erected principles,
and cast the moral from the peak? Yes on both accounts.

Look at the happy couple.
Couldn't they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends' sake?

Listen to them laughing – it’s an insult.
The language they use - deceptively clear.

And their little celebrations, rituals,
the elaborate mutual routines -
it's obviously a plot behind the human race's back!

It's hard even to guess how far things might go
if people start to follow their example.

What could religion and poetry count on?
What would be remembered? What renounced?
Who'd want to stay within bounds?

True love. Is it really necessary?
Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,
like a scandal in Life's highest circles.

Perfectly good children are born without its help.
It couldn't populate the planet in a million years,
it comes along so rarely.

Let the people who never find true love
keep saying that there's no such thing.

Their faith will make it easier for them to live and
die.

Dark Knight

2008-07-18T16:34:00.005+08:00

im not here to write a review...i dont think my words would do justice to this excellent, totally mind-blowing sequel of the Cape Cruisader. But if u want a review, the best one ive read so far, click here.

at first all we wanted to do was to watch 'sepi' but when we got to GSC, it seemed like they are not showing sepi anymore so we had to go for another option. the best options at that time was Dark Knight or Hellboy 2...so we decided to go for Dark Knight...

obviously its a no-secret that im pretty emotional in cinema. hey, its not like i can help it! of coz, i dont get that emo when i watch the telly at home coz im not totally focus on the screen. but when ure in the cinema, ur 100% attention is directed on the screen, following every moves, from one plot to another, so tell me this, how the hell can u help urself from screaming ur lungs out at the sight of the ghost that appears from god-knows-where or when theres a war going on with bullets flying everywhere! its just too intense, too much for my poor soul!

but for Dark Knight, i must say i have to make an exception. eventhough i was totally freaked out at the sight of the Joker the first time i saw the trailer, but i knew, deep down within me, my heart was screaming and shouting to watch the movie. haha....yeah, a bit dramatic there ;)

so i did some preparation for the movie...went up to the website and watch the trailer a few times just to get used to the new Joker. i call this, my mental preparation.hehe...and boy, it was all worth it! i was so glad that i did what i did, otherwise i'd be closing my eyes throughout the movie.

the movie was great! despite the two and a half hours length it did not feel that long to me. in fact we were quite shocked to realise that it was 9pm when we walked out of the cinema...

for me, i think this is the best sequel ive watched so far. its totally different from the others, but if you've watched Batman Begins i think u would expect nothing less than this. from the storyline to the twisted plots, the narations even the shots were nicely done. the charecters evolved so well in the movie. there are many interesting scenes that got me thinking about the significance behind it. i agree, it is a very good movie to study. but then again, Christopher Nolan has always been known for his amazing psycholgical thrillers (eventhough i have never dared to watch any of his work before Batman Begins) so, i can see why it comes so natural in Dark Knight.

here are some interesting lines from the movie;

Bruce: I knew the mob wouldn't go down without a fight. But this is different. They crossed the line.
Alfred: You crossed the line first, sir. You hammered them. And in their desperation they turned to a man they didn't fully understand. Some men aren't looking for anything logical. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn.

The Joker: I use a knife because guns are too quick. Otherwise, you can't savor all the emotions. You know who people are in their last moments.

Batman: Why do you want to kill me?
The Joker: I don't want to kill you. What would I do without you?

The Joker: Introduce a little anarchy... Upset the established order... Well then everyone loses their minds!

Harvey Dent: The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming!

Harvey Dent: You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain.

Bruce: People are dying. What would you have me do?
Alfred: Endure. You can be the outcast. You can make the choice that no one else will face - the right choice. Gotham needs you.

Gotham National Bank Manager: The criminals in this town used to believe in things. Honor. Respect. Look at you! What do you believe in? What do you believe in!
The Joker: I believe whatever doesn't kill you simply makes you... stranger.

but for me personally, the best line in the movie was when The Joker mocked a famous line in Jerry Maguire when he told Batman, "You complete me,"

so yes, The Joker is every bit as described by the late Heath Ledger; "a psychopathic, schizophrenic, mass murdering clown with zero empathy" and a world class sense of humor...

things she does

2008-06-23T20:32:00.001+08:00

“here u go….take this,”

“huh? Whats this for?”

“take it. it’s the least I can give after all these years,”

“erm……oh oookay I guess,”

Gosh! Weird alright! The only thing that’s running in my head this very minute is where the hell did that come from??!!

Hehe… the things she does….

p/s: I forgot all about this post until I went through my DIVERSION folder…hehe…

GENTING HIGHLANDS Y'ALL!!

2008-06-22T14:37:00.008+08:00

just pixies here....enjoy!

tingling all over

2008-06-11T09:41:00.006+08:00

First and foremost, yes I know! I have been ignoring my blog for quite sometime. Almost a week actually and please cut the drama. Im entitle to be malas or the latest quote I got from someone, ‘a vege’ once in awhile!

So first things first….i got my Celcom USB port 2 weeks ago and yes, I can now be connected at any time to the world from the land of kelapa sawit! Yay!! But at this moment im in KL coz HOLLYDAY has started….for almost 2 weeks already….but anyways, YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, cut the YAY!!!!!!!!!!! And lets get down to business. My results are finally out. (u know when that say that happiness don’t last forever) yeah, nothing else can compare to this…

Everytime I have to get my results via online or take it personally, I always get that tingling feeling, not tingle due to excitement okay? Its more like tingle with fear and anxiousness, then here comes the latter part where I can feel butterflies flying inside my stomach. God, I hate that!!

Then I’ll start reciting all the prayers that I can remember, but obviously, considering my current circumstances at that moment, yeah u can just imagine how many prayers that im able to recite :(

Same goes for the recent results…

I was on the cable car at Genting Highlands when I got an sms from meenu telling me that the result were out…haih…that clown! Always pick the bestest time to convey her message…but luckily I was too scared, praying for my life as the cable car goes out of the building (damn…it was so high up!) so I completely forgotten about her message. Hehe….sorry woman!

Then after all the fun at Genting (don’t worry, I'll posting on that real soon) I got back home, I think that was last Wednesday, got into my room and connect the internet immediately for latest updates…

By then ive already felt a tingle…

Asked aimi if she got any news, she said none that’s confirmed yet…so I was pretty much, relief….

Then Ivan and aash messaged me, and yes, the topic was about the results. Man, man, man….i hate this period of time when all people talk about is results. I hate it coz that’s when u get to hear all the rumors though I just don’t understand where the hell they come out with all this shit trying to scare people off!! When people come and tell me all this B*^&S#@T normally I just keep quiet but when I get people coming to me all scared after hearing those rumors that’s when I normally get ticked off. Gosh, why cant they just think for a minute? I mean, getting all worked up over things that they can do nothing about?? Please la….here I am worrying about my part, u can come and tell me those rumors but please spare me the fret (and this has nothing to do with my conversation with aash and ivan...im talking generally here)

Okay, back to the story… so after the chat and all I logged off and unpack. In the evening I thought I should doze off for awhile and just as I was about to do that, I got a message by who else but none other than jajakin! Obviously I knew what shes gonna ask. Naturally I said no, I don’t know. Then I closed my eyes for about 5 minutes when another message came in, “u know wut? Arif got A for pharmaco and arena got B+!” alamak…..must she do this??!! And my reply for that was, “really? Well, good for them,”

And I thought, Ahh…..that should do it. So I launched my third attempt to grab some beauty sleep……………….when the third message came in! “I should let u know that most of the results are out so u can check it out,” oh man! Is it too much to ask for a beauty sleep these days??!! So, I ignored that and closed my eyes real tight, hoping to get some sleep.

I can feel myself dozing off, entering a world of fantasy…or rather a very weird fantasy. A girl whom im not even close to asked me if I want to stay with her. I thought hey, that’s like sooooo weird….then I walked into another room where all of the sudden im in the A&E Dept and Ivan was one of the casualty…he’s got a key chain (not the fancy part but the ring that holds the key together) stuck on his chest all the way down his abdominal! That was ULTIMATELY weird!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then I was thinking to myself, my God! This is so weird!!! suddenly I heard a very slow melody, almost a lullaby. I stopped and listen carefully…..hey that sounds so familiar. What is it? what is it? I strained my ear……and it hit me, that was 6^th sense singing a fav of mine... then it gets louder and suddenly I felt a vibration. Is it an earthquake?? I closed my eyes tightly and hugged myself. When I can no longer feel the vibration, I dared open my eyes……and that’s when I realized that its not an earthquake but its my handphone! Got one message. Open it and oh dear, its that woman again! “congrats for ur A!” don’t remember the rest but in the end, “I hope we pass everything la right?” sorry, it’s a pretty ln message as I recall so I only remember buts and pieces of it.

And now you think I can sleep? Obviously not!

Coz I can feel the tingle already!

I got up and asked her where do I get my result, and she told me to check the mail…oh man! I swear I can feel the butterflies in my stomach! Open my gmail, nothing..open my yahoo mail, nothing…open my hotmail, nothing! And still the tingles and butterflies!!!

So in the end, jaja ended up checking all my results for me and as this far, ive passed everything. Now im still waiting for the remaining 3 papers; peads 3 & 4, and anes…gosh! I just want this done and over with! Im at the stage where I don’t care what I get, I just want to pass everything!!!sigh, sigh, sigh!!!! This totally sucks I tell u!

recent update at 5.48pm:

seperti yang ku jangka terjadi...got a message from jaja, saying that i have to re-sit my peads 3...sigh, sigh, sigh! had to confirm with Gil, then called Dr Bad to ask him whens the remedial. ACMS ni pun is a bit la the weird...they didnt even bother telling the students when the remedial will be held coz u know why?? they just had the discussion about it today! so all of us were pretty much left in the dark. i called and luckily i got through, he said that it'll be held on the 19th to the 21st but half an hour ago, he messaged aireena saying that it'll be held on the 16th to the 18th. Gil just arrived at Penang today coz Dr Dayat told her that it'll be held either on the 12th till the 14th or 16th to the 18th...u see the confusion here?? as for me, i dont think it'll be held tomorrow seeing that Dr Bad himself just got the official result and that he's still in Medan at the moment. we'll just wait and see la....letih mental and physical (coz im fasting today :( *sob,sob!) plus i took Fedec last night and i feel so weak...i think im sounding like a grandma so im gonna stop now...OUT!

im looking...

2008-06-11T08:51:00.003+08:00

im looking at you, im looking at him...
there you are, ordering people what to do, and there he is, sitting quietly on his chair...

im looking at you, im looking at him...
there you are, helplessly on ur bed, laying down the law for others, and there he is, still on his chair, comfortably reading newspaper...

im looking at you, im looking at him...
there you are, struggling to get up, and there he is, halfway buttoning his shirt...

im looking at you, im looking at him...
there you are, bellowing for ur food, and there he is, slowly taking his food by himself...

im looking at you, im looking at him...
there you are, shouting and yelling at the hand that feeds you, and there he is, eating his meal quietly...

im listening to him, im listening to you....

there he is, telling me how lonely he is, pining for the one who was gone long time ago,

and im listening to you, whining and giving hell to the people around you, bollocking just because u feel like doing so...

and im looking at her...
i hope i can be half the woman she is...

will you ever see that?

not in a million years...

BBQ at putra villas

2008-06-07T17:59:00.021+08:00

this is the second time im uploading pixies here...sigh, am i the only one who find it so hard to upload and arrange so many pictures in blogger? gosh! if there is an easier way rather than dragging one by one then please anyone, kindly email me.

so anyways last month, during the last week of our lecture, we had our gathering at the club house in putra villas...its like our last get-together before we split up as majority of us are leaving for kangar and some, very minority of us, including me are staying in kepala batas. nothing much to say, but i have many2 pixies for ya'll ;) so let the pixies speaks for itself...

we makan at the pool.hehe....sempat camwhoring :)

this one is taken by ivan...by this time we are almost done with our food...but of coz, knowing us, we always crave for MORE!!

we call this 'children exploitation for camwhoring purposes'...tsk,tsk,tsk....shame on them!

girls at the table, R to L: nadia, datin I, che 'ah, rose and baina

the medanians, R to L: andi, gil, pit and anes prof..

R to L: anak Dr Bad (i dont know which one la..the thing is, everytime i see children wandering around the villa i assume thats anak Dr Bad), combi (great to have him back with us), aseh and jaja...

R to L: nadia, aseh, andi, combi and tikah (awatla la tu?!?!)

for some reason girls seems to love andi that night...man, this dude is like everywhere! i reckon its probably due to the extinction of the male species in our batch or perhaps the ones left was busy playing daddy?!?!

we have faiz playing brother here..
(siap main kejar-kejar lagi)

AND

naqib playing daddy!

hehe...i was right!!

on that night, we even have bunga api and the fire crackers going on as well...
hehe...teruja pulak :)

very nostalgic right?

fatin showing the bunga api to the kid :)

astaga! ada lagi muka cowok satu nie!

so as we were busy playing bunga api, suddenly we realised that the men were missing! cari punya cari, suddenly we found them! jeng, jeng, jeng!!!

at the back of the building!!
i call this, "the women haters club" as up to this moment we are still wondering what went on back there....

and just what are girls without some perky @ gediks poses? R to L: che 'ah (datang lambat pun sempat nak posing), fatin, aireena (eleh meow nie!), nadh, and aimi (sejak bila la ada new pose nie?)

R to L: nadia, pit and aimi (nie awatnyer tonggek lagi nie? tak tahannye!)

R to L: nadia, pit, fatin and nadh

all in all, i conclude that we all had so much fun. its a very nice party though im very sure we'll be seeing very, very much more of each other in the future so it's very unlikely we'll miss each other too much...haha....unless we're combi and dayu, yeah, i think we'll do just fine.

so CHEERS TO ACMS-USURIANS BATCH 2004! WE RAWK Y'ALL!!!!

teachers day :)

2008-06-07T17:50:00.003+08:00

another late update by muah :)

okay, for those of u who still dont know, ive been doing a part time job as a tuition tutor for the past 3months...hehe....i know! who would have thought! its by accident actually...and it was fun!despite the ke-gatal-an of some boys, yeah...i think it was fun altogether. kids these days! they keep surprising u day after day...i now have a greater respect for teachers out there..man, the things they do for us, the crap they put up with us...

anyways, guess what? i got a teachers day present too! hehe......yeaps! i know! i know! haha....forgive me for being super excited about it and all but hey, i think its one of the sweetest gesture ever!

thanx Una for the present!!! terharu sangat!!! *sob, sob! :'(

manusia aneh!

2008-06-02T23:59:00.003+08:00

some people i tell u! they have no manners what-so-ever! eh, excuse me! dah la cakap dengan orang tua, pakai otak la sikit! tak payah la nak kurang ajar sangat...orang dah baik dengan kita,susah sangat ker nak cakap baik-baik kat orang??dah la menipu lepas tu nak buat eff-off pulak!!!!

stressnyer! how the hell can u say to someone whos elder than u, dah la not even related to u at all, "susah la cakap dengan orang yang tak faham bahasa!"

otak kat lutut! mangkuk betul!!

sorry la....i just have to rant and rave at someone or something!

IDIOT!!!

our t-shirt....

2008-05-29T15:32:00.007+08:00

this is our t-shirt....our class monitor has gotten all 'semangated' and suggested for all of us to have our very own t-shirt, of coz for our batch only :)

so here goes....nothing fancy la...remember, its the SPIRIT that counts :))

this is the front view of the shirt....
cant help wondering if its inspired by the Majlis Sukan Sekolah Daerah (MSSD)

and thats my name...a bit weird la with the "DR." in front of it

and thats our motto in ACMS...so inspiring....
in other words, "indah khabar dari rupa.....campusnya.."

ANESTHESIOLOGY...

2008-05-29T13:24:00.005+08:00

i must admit, of all the lecturers that came down to teach us, the department with the best lecturers so far is anesthesiology...they're so good that i actually have my ganong on my table over the weekend...hehe...thats quite an accomplishment for me :)

and we even took a class picture with Dr Hasanul Arifin....

recent update at 2.06pm:
fine, fine...since aniza pointed it out (sheesh woman!!) so the ganong is pretty much untouched on my right hand side but i, obviously am leaning towards my leftie for my lappie....happy?!?! think about it this way, i let the ganong get some fresh air...u know how stuffy it is in the locker?i kesian the book u see :(

WHATS THE FUSS??

2008-05-24T16:28:00.002+08:00

as i was surfing, i came across this issue on 'Allah' exclusivity for muslims. maybe its pretty old to comment on this but i realise that this polemic has been going on for a very long time and it looks like its never ending.

the first time i saw the usage of 'Allah' in Christianity was when i was studying in Medan. well, it was pretty shocking at first but that only last for like....5 minutes??!! all because of the sudden realization in me, "we are all one arent we? or at least we once were..."

dont get me wrong ya? i am a muslim and i have great believe in Islam. not only because i was taught on the essentials of becoming a true muslim but i understand the need for it and the logical reasons behind it.

personally, i agree with Dan-yel about his understanding on the many, many religions in this world. metaphorically, its as if we are all heading to a big stadium only on different vehicles.

im not a very religious person myself but i think when we talk about the concept of 'Tuhan' or 'God' , for me who may not be very devoted to her religion but BELIEVES with all her heart that its true, I must be able to explain the basic concept of KETUHANAN.

i believe that there can only be ONE God in this entire universe. why u ask?

its simple...its like ruling a country. there can only be ONE government for every country and in every government, there can be only ONE ruler either a president or a prime minister. 2 person in the same position cannot rule together. we each have our own views and ideas as well as agendas. a ruler may have a cabinets to support his government and advisers to see him through but in the end all the decisions makings will fall unto his lap. its just the way it has to be...

same goes with Hinduism. in Hinduism they believe that there is only ONE God of a Supreme Being who possesses personality and worship Him or Her thus, as Vishnu, Brahma, Shiva or Shakti depending on the sect.

in the Holy Quran it was stated clearly,Surah Yunus, Ayat 19,

[10:19] "Mankind were but one community (i.e. on one religion - Islamic Monotheism), then they differed (later), and had not it been for a Word that went forth before from your Lord, it would have been settled between them regarding what they differed,"

if u study the history of Islam, Christian and Jew, u can see that all 3 religions come from the same root. we are all the ancestors of Abraham. in Surah Al-Baqarah, Ayat 87,

[01:87] "And indeed, We gave Musa (Moses) the Book and followed him up with a succession of Messengers. And We gave 'Iesa (Jesus), the son of Maryam (Mary), clear signs and supported him with Rah-ul-Qudus [Jibrael (Gabriel)]........."

what im trying to stress here is that, believe it or not, we are all praying to the same God and there is only ONE God and that is Allah. so, why the exclusivity?

being a muslim and a malay i understand where the paranoia comes from. yes, ive heard it all. we are afraid that it will be misleading so on and so forth...but at times i think this paranoia is clouding our judgements and by doing so, we have given the wrong impression to the non-muslims.

however, i would like differ on the perception that equates the name 'Allah' to a step towards idolatry. yes it is true that in Islam, we are against idolatry because we believe by creating an object as a symbol of God we tend to put it on the pedestal and this totally deviates from the nature of Allah. Allah adalah Maha Mengetahui dan Maha Mendengar. hence, there shouldn't be any object created to connect us to Allah.

the name Allah itself is not just a representation. its not just a terminology created by humans to represent The Almighty. i believe with all my heart that the name Allah comes from The Almighty Himself, not just an important terminology that comes from the human-created language of Arabic. the Holy Quran is one of the biggest miracle in the history of Islam and the biggest 'mukjizat' of Nabi Muhammad S.A.W and it comes from The Almighty Himself.

Surah Al-Imran, Ayat 164,

[03:164] "indeed Allah conferred a great favour on the believers when He sent among them a Messenger (Muhammad S.A.W) from among themselves, reciting unto them His versus (the Quran), and purifying them (from sins by their following him), and instructing them (in) the Book (the Quran) and Al-Hikmah [the wisdom and the Sunnah of the Prophet (i.e his legal ways, statements, acts of worship, etc)], while before that they had been in manifest error"

so the name Allah is not just adopted by Allah as a medium of communication between Him and His ummah through the Quran but it is a reference by The Almighty of Himself from His very own words. now, how can something that comes from God Himself can be referred to as a step towards idolatry?

i believe that we can make this country a better place if we put aside the paranoia and learn to give and take. i agree that this sense of 'ownership' of this being is leading us to nowhere. yes, we protect whats ours but at the same time we have to look at the pros and cons of every action that we take. if we dont take time to open our minds and look at things the way they do, then how can we expect them to understand us? think about it.....

r.i.d.i.c.u.l.o.u.s

2008-05-24T12:10:00.003+08:00

Goof balls have some sort of a higher plane connection, u know like an internal understanding, “hey, im goofy!” “OMG! That’s so freaky coz u know what?? Im no goofier than u are!” “oh, that’s so cool! Lets stay together in the same house!”

if uve read my previous entry then I guess this is like an extension of more ludicrous acts of these ‘idiotic breeds’…

ID1 and ID2 stays in the same house along with this other woman, who has finally showed her idiotic side but since she didn’t pissed me off as the other 2 did, (oh btw, im not pissed with ID2 anymore but ID1 sure annoys me like hell!) I don’t think she deserves to stand along side her 2 housemates.

You see, in my college we go by the block system. Basically, we study from Monday to Thursday and on Friday we have exam. That’s my routine every week for the past 5 months. So, for u people who kept asking me why I didn’t study during weekends like I used to, its actually because I’ve been slaving my ass off from Monday to Friday so its only natural for me to take the weekend off to keep my sanity by doing something more… rejuvenating. Hehe…

Back on track, so u see…we only have 4 days to cover topics that are being taught for 6 months in medan so u can just imagine the loads we have to cover by Friday. Nak dijadikan cerita, last Monday was Wesak Day which means hol-li-day! So lecture for last week starts on Tuesday. According to the schedule, our exam was supposed to be on Saturday.

So, this woman wanted to go back for the weekend coz she has a wedding to attend. She told everybody (not me la…coz I didn’t go to the hospital) that she intends to suggest to the lecturer to have the exam on Friday. La la la la la….finally everyone agreed including the lecturer to have it on Friday evening. Then, on Thursday morning, she came to my house in kain batik and t-shirts apparently, (as I was sleeping) asked my housemates to sokong her coz now, she wants to have it on Friday morning! Coz her bus is leaving Butterworth at 11am! Erm…please bear in mind that we are not even half way through the whole syllabus before mid sem at the moment. Can u imagine the situation here? We have so much to cover, not including the lectures we are ‘going’ to have later that day and we are suppose to cover all that in less than 24hours???

Is she freaking insane?????

So finally in the class, the lecturer asked us when we want to have our exam. Since everyone was reluctant to raise their hands obviously to avoid conflicts, we finally resolved to voting. Bersusah-payah la semua manusia dalam kelas tu mengeluarkan kertas just to vote…and the result was 9 votes Friday morning, 20 votes Friday evening and some mangkuk who did undi rosak…

Then suddenly I heard sobbing from behind. At that moment, I was like “….oh dear, here we go….”

This woman, was sobbing and sniffling (in front of the lecturer!) saying how unfair everything was. I, on the other hand was congratulating myself for having the honor to sit right in front of her just to listen to her whinging about how betrayed she was, how her friends happened NOT to be her true friends ya da ya da ya da!

“aku kecewa!!”

“kawan-kawan aku tak sokong aku!!”

Eh, hello! Use ur brain la woman! If this involves life and death OR IF SHE IS THE ONE WHO IS GETTING MARRIED, then I don’t mind staying for extra class till 9pm and take my exam at 8am the following morning. The problem is, this woman wants to go back to be the ‘pengapit’ at her relative’s wedding. Why the hell do I want to sacrifice my paper for someone whos happily getting married while I end up ‘happily’ repeating my paper? To make it more absurd than it already has, apparently the wedding was on Saturday. So obviously she can just take the latter bus to KL then to Muar right? But she said no….u know why? Its because she wants to reach Muar early so she didn’t miss the chance to become ‘pengapit’ since she already has a tailor made baju for the wedding! so, I study macam nak mati in order for her to bergaya sakan tunjuk baju baru at a wedding?!?!?! How daft can this woman be?

The fact that she can ask all of this from us was like another conundrum altogether. Tak rasa malu ker sebab nak menyusahkan orang? Ah well, then again its not like she and her circle of friends are not known for that.

Personally, I have no patience for self-centered people. This is the problem when u keep pointing ur fingers to others. Someone told me, in a way she pity her. To me, I’d better save my pity for something or someone more deserving. Coz when I think about it again, I cant help but finding it pretty stupid that in a way its kind of amusing. Of coz this is not the last time its going to happen.

To quote Admiral Adama “….all this has happened and it will happen again…”

rise and shine!!

2008-05-24T11:50:00.002+08:00

if theres something that ive learnt after using Digi GPRS for quite awhile is, never to ON ur browser if u dont have have sufficient credit. haih.....the hectic morning i had trying to reach the customer service and installing the browser all over again. thankfully the customer service were very much of help. otherwise i think id have to get up from my comfy bed (still wrapped in my blanket by the way...) to look for a Digi center on some mobile retailers near by. so yes, i love Digi and my motorola RZ V3i...hehe....

FUNFAIR!!!!

2008-05-19T14:55:00.011+08:00

the last time i went to a funfair was years ago.back then during my UM (university of malaya) days, the 12th college had a funfair so my friends and i decided to go. it was fun, but i recall thinking that it was not as fun as the funfair at my kampung.

dulu, when my dearie grandmother was still alive we always balik kampung. biasanya, during weekends always ada funfair. i can still remember how kecoh we all were! belum pergi dah kecoh. yang nak pergi dah tentulah ramai...all the cousins and young aunties and uncles semestinya will go with their kids, yang paling tak larat havoc tu are the oldies la! yang warga emas pulak yang terover kecoh....bukannya apa pun, kecoh sebab nak kumpulkan lebih ramai 'batalion' nak serbu fun fair tu! and it was so much fun!! just all of us being there, enjoying the rides...those were the days i tell u!!

so last few weeks (sorry la...super late posting!) jaja and i decided to go to a funfair next to the highway (i do not know where it is exactly! dun ask me about the roads in penang! tak faham!) we've passed by the funfair several times but never really had the time to go. finally we got the time plus its holiday anyways so why not??

here are some of the pix we took at the funfair...

this was our first ride......UFO..
pening kepala!! and sakit badan too!!

yang nie, im not sure what the name was...but it was fun! very windy....yoooohooo!

this one, i seriously do not know what its called...but i know i like it la!
never miss any opportunity to get into it...

view taken from above....

this is the token....each token is RM1...hmmm...compared to my kampung days back then, nie sebenarnya quite mahal la....but then again, nak makan pun mahal nowaday..hehe...

and because we're so 'lucky', check out the only thing that we manage to 'win' that night...
>>>2 keychains...

I GOT TAGGED!

2008-05-18T16:50:00.004+08:00

actually ive forgotten about this. thankfully i went to jaja's blog and saw it...so here goes!

7 random facts about me:
1. i am a proud FORTH YEAR MEDICAL STUDENT of ALLIANZE COLLEGE OF MEDICAL SCIENCES
2. my goal in life is to become the best surgeon the world has yet to see...
3. i hope in the next 20 years to come i will discover a new discovery that will change the
medical field and win meself a nobel prize at least...
4. so in order to achieve all that i study AT LEAST 15hours per day
5. i dont really eat nor sleep.....i just study
6. i spend my free time reading ganong, davidson, kumar & clark and oxford clinical medicine (i just love internal meds)
7. before i sleep i make sure i memorise at least 20words from the medical dictionary...only then will i have my beauty sleep.....

7 things that scares me:
1. spending less than 15hours a day for study
2. failing my papers (just the thought of it...can send me straight to hell!!)
3. skipping lectures (why, thats totally absurd!!)
4. not able to answer questions thrown by the doctors (i must know everything!)
5. getting a B for any of my papers
6. not becoming a surgeon
7. not winning a nobel prize! muahahahaha!!

7 random music at the moment:
1. 5th symphony (beethoven)
2. blue danube (strauss)
3. willian tell overtue (rossini)
4. hungarian rhapsody no. 2 (liszt)
5. Piano Sonata No. 16 In C(mozart)
6. lullaby (brahms)
7. Romeo And Juliet Fantasy Overture Love Theme(Tchaikovsky)

7 things I say the most:
1. wheres my stethoscope?
2. next patient please...
3. yes...i will work harder
4.nobel prize....here i come! (the first thing i say in the morning)
5. study woman! study like theres no tomorrow!
6. yes, i know that!
7. work, work and work!!!!

7 things I treasure the most (material things):
1. my stethoscope
2. my clinical handbook
3. my notebooks
4. my lap top
5. my medical text books
6. my white coat
7. my collection of medical journals

7 "first time" things I ever did:
1. the first time i stepped foot in Rumah Sakit Adam Malik
2. the first time i used my stethoscope
3. the first patient i clerked
4. My first compliment from my doctor
5. My first time in operation theater
6. the first time i got an A or 100 for my exam
7. The first time i stepped foot in ACMS campus.....(it takes my breath away....)

7 people to do this:
1. not
2. planning
3. to
4. anyone
5. through
6. this
7. misery

hehe....if u have any idea who i am ;)

Take for granted

2008-05-18T06:25:00.002+08:00

No long before, I used to read an article about why we tend to treat strangers with such courteous, great manners and politeness but on the other hands, we treat our loved ones with rudeness, discourteous in other words, our manners towards them are simply loutish.

Its very funny don’t u think? When we are in presence of a total stranger say, in a plane and there is a man sitting next to u. U are on ur headphone watching a movie when this man started tapping your shoulder just to ask u where the washroom is. Of coz ure annoyed coz he’s interrupting ur movie but u smile anyway and answer in full sentence, “hmm…I think its right at the back,” or “Sorry, I’m not sure about that. Why don’t u ask the steward over there?” But if the person interrupting is one of ur friend or someone significant to u, u tend to answer them tersely, “at the back.!” Or “Gee, I don’t know. Look for it urself!”

The problem is, u don’t realize ure doing this. Partly because u feel so close to them and u think, “Ah, its just Brandon. He’ll understand,” or u feel, hey, this is ur close friend, why the courteous and all?

Same goes when u want to ask someone to do something for u. If that someone happens to be a stranger or just a mutual friend, maybe you would rather do it yourself than asking for help. But if it happens to someone significant, u’d go like , “hey, take that for me?” or “U do this, this and this. Oh ya, on your way out u do that too,”

And again, u don’t realize ure doing this. Ive done my share too im sure. But I always try to stop myself when I realize im doing this. The moment the realization pops up, I stop. Coz lets face it, regardless of who they are or what they are, the bottom line is they are mere humans. Humans have feelings. So the least u can do for them after all the things and crap they put up with u is to try ur level best to appreciate them. If u can treat others nicely why don’t u treat them the same? Whats the harm in that?

To quote Lynne Truss, being nice doesn’t cost u a dime (im paraphrasing) and its very hard to find anything that comes for free these days. So lets start with the people around us. Instead of answering them with a curt rejection note, dismissively and abruptly (so many, u name it!) lets be more hospitable, warm, welcoming, affable or maybe even try to be genial even when u feel like tearing some one alive. One of our biggest mistake is we tend to let our anger takes the best of us and we take it out on the people who are closest to us. In other words, ure driving them away from u. And let me tell u another fact about humans. Humans wont realize what they have lost until its gone…

here in my home

2008-05-18T05:52:00.002+08:00

have u heard of MAFU or known as malaysian artistes for unity? well, if u havent heard of it, its a very cool project by pete teo to make an anti-racism song and music video. 120 people involved voluntarily for this project...and the result is something for us to be proud of... so here is video clip by yasmin ahmad, here in my home...

believe it...or not!

2008-05-18T01:41:00.033+08:00

for u people who doesnt know this small little fact, well let me break it up to u. i am a medical student. yes....that i am...

hard to believe? well, im still having the hardest time believing it myself. as u can see, i dont really blog about my life as a medical student. im trying to protect this blog against any medical terminology that would corrupt my blog as it has corrupted my life....haha...

its not that bad... it gets tough as it gets going, but hey u deal with it right? i guess like any other profession it has its good and bad, pros and cons. im not overly excited to become a doctor. like my friends, u can see their faces lit up as they talk about the things they saw in the operation theater, or the cases they saw in the ward, sometimes they'd talk about the doctors and nurses and god-knows-what-else (u see, normally the moment the topic comes up, i just turn deaf or slowly falls asleep) so technically, their lives evolves around the hospital and i think they like it fine and dandy :)

as for me....i would like to think that i am currently doing something that i have to do. i dont hate nor dislike what im doing. im not overly enthusiastic about it either. its just something that i have to do. i dont have to force myself to do it, i just do it...so its just another day like every other day for me...

so life as a medical student....if u think its all books then i'd say ure totally right. we study so hard. we study day and night. 24 hours, 7 days a week is just not enough! so many things to read, so little time. sometimes its a miracle that we can spare some time to eat. normally we just eat bread or something thats easy to chew. we cant afford the luxury to glance at our food while we're eating. its just not possible! we dont use our beds as we dont sleep at night.normally we just crash on the study table after going through the notes and revising last semesters' notes (coz we dont want to forget stuff as we get going)...

which is why ACMS dont bother providing a proper matress for us, coz they know we wont be using it! oh...they're so understanding (sungguh terharu memikirkannya).

we dont bother putting on make-ups or anything as harmless as foundation but prefer walking around kepala batas looking like a bunch of zombies! as for entertainment, let me see....we go on-line during weekends to surf for latest medical journals, latest CMG (clinical medical guidelines) not only from malaysia but also from other countries....bravo! (thats why dr. fauzi is so proud of us!), we would google for more discoveries in medicine (u know, there are so many discoveries u have yet to know)...

sometimes we shed tears just thinking of the many, many news facts that we have yet to know. plus the thought of other people reading something that we do not know at the moment, oh dear! cant help but to be kiasu!!

on the bright side, we look at it as something that drive us to study harder and be the best! we devote our lives to medicine....our lives, our pride, our joy and our every happiness...so here are the evidences of our hard work at the klinik kesihatan last week...

at first we started as a group,

then we got ourselves a partner,

somehow we decided that it was very educating for us, we decided to do it personally,

so now u get the picture right?

confession of a 'not so' teenage girl

2008-05-11T10:13:00.014+08:00

one thing u should know about me is that.......i dont like going to class. if i can avoid it, i will try every means to avoid it...

so whats my problem exactly?

gee....i dont know! i just dont like going to class. PERIOD!

its not like i hate it, sometimes i look forward to it. but in the end, somehow one way or another i end up sleeping at the back of the class or if im awake, i'll be talking to my friends and ended up making so much noise that someone will get thrown out of the class. teringat when jaja and ivan got thrown out of class by datten bangun....because of me! *sob, sob!! i shed tear whenever i think about it...its too depressing!! haha....yeah right!

during LAN class...i was so bored that i started shredding paper!

evidence of my hard work....

come to think about it, in medan i dont really go to class. maybe i'll go like once or twice a week just for the sake of going or u know how some lecturers love to call names or check the attendance? yeah.....but there are times (many, many times actually) when my name got called and i wasnt in class and the annoying part is when my friend told me with such a drama as if the lecturer was in flaming temper, and that he was so close to explode

and all this because i was absent. u think i dont know what they are trying to pull on me? im not stupid! they're to scare me for not coming to class, thats why!

i know im suppose to go to class but i chose not to. so should anything happen prior to my decision, i must take full responsibility for my action.
have i gotten into trouble before? of coz la! numerous times in fact! the most unforgettable one was with pak dedi...i was sooo ready to repeat my physiology! but thank god, i passed!!

so back to class, there was this one time i was so bored and i cant sleep! so u know what i did???

yes! i started doing my part-time job camwhoring!!!
-we've all done things that we're not proud of u know!-

or, better yet i get the president of The Camwhore Association to ber-camwhore together-gether! at least shes doing something other than sleeping!

admit it jaja....its in ur blood!

sometimes, the secretary will tag along...

...jam 'team rocket' pun nak tag along ker??...

as u can see...we even recruit new member!

even the ones who didnt realise that they were being recruited like 'Datin I' yg busy ber-sms over there...

see how hardworking we are in class?

considering the amount of hardwork we put in class....its amazing if we didnt pass with flying colours dont u think??