me = ignorance (+ ignore??)

it's a small fact that ive learn to live with. i am very ignorant at times. they say that 'ignorance is a bliss'. i'd say thats so, so true...how can u worry about something that u do not know?

sometimes, even if i know, i just choose not to pay heed to it. to me, if its something that u can do nothing about, which means all u have to do is wait...then why mess ur head thinking about all the possibilities and get urself fretting up over nothing? want me to lay out the reasons?

1. firstly, its time consuming...why waste your time thinking of things that u have no control of? eg: getting all worked up coz the result is still not out yet. like we dont know how they work here?? i just dont get it!for god sake!! 4years living in medan n u still have not pick up a thing or 2? that stupid or just too foolish?
2. secondly, i find it very exhausting and tiring! i dont know about other people but i get very exhausted and tired when im fretting about something. u put ur poor brain in labor. hence, using the extra ATP in ur body when u could have used it for something much, much useful than worrying.
   
3. thirdly, it messes with my life. when i think or rather worrying my heart out over something, it messes with my routine. im unable to function normally coz i cant think of anything else but that! now, why would i let a problem takes control of my beautiful,wonderful life and in a long run creating other problems in my life coz im not handling my life well? like i havent got enough to deal with!
   

this is why i just let it be. and this only applies to matters that

I DONT HAVE ANY CONTROL OF

so, call me ignorant or whatever u want to....for me, i'd rather live my life than worrying and fretting over useless stuff. all u have to do is wait, then wait la. when its out then we deal with it. maybe they should learn not to let their hopes high. coz when it crashes down upon u, thats when u get angry and pissed over nothing. saying 'marahnya aku....' or 'stressnya aku' doesnt change a thing. if its a way to let it out then by all means, please do so. but to say it almost everyday? come on la......its not like those words can get the people in admin to work their asses off.



get real shall we?



in the end it just makes me wonder, which one is worse? being ignorant or being stupid?

bEinG a LiBrAN

i have finally reached the stage where im questioning myself about being a LIBRAN!

here's a recap of what has happened in front of the poor cashier yesterday...

i was at a whole sale in medan fair mall with husna n we were checking out the stuff they had there n it was a very good deal indeed...so i picked up this black top coz the night before i was thinking of getting myself something black to go with my new overall.plus its so cheap, rp45k (thats like rm18 for a Billabong) but of coz, knowing me...im not likely to just settle down with only 1 option, i continued browsing through in case i find something else that'd caught me eye. then i came across this brown top, looks very sporty for a top n i thought hey, this is niceeee.....

then i went jalan some more and found this cool black baby-t, it really caught my eye! so now i have 3 garments to choose from. and there i was, walking back n forth tailing husna while shes choosing her stuff n me doing MAJOR thinking as to which top i should get....

after shes done with her choice of garments, i.....am still where i started, clueless!

i could buy all 3 but im on a tight budget right now, so i dont really want to spend so much on clothes....plus im sure i'll definitely buy more when im in KL. my budget was around rp130k or below so obviously i have to choose 2 out of 3. okayla, to cut long story short, i chose the black top n the black baby-t...(both blacks pulak tu, how so jaja-kino!)

later, as i was walking towards the cashier, my mind started wandering elsewhere n having doubts pulak! despite the tensed i was feeling deep inside me, i still handed it to him anyway. then, as he was about to tear the price tag i stopped him, took the top away from him, turned and asked husna again for 'should i get this?'

what the heck???? where did that impulse come from????

then husna patiently told me, "i think it looks nice on u, perhaps u should get it,"

only then did i gave the top back to the cashier who was giving me a look....
and thats what happen when im being indecisive...

after that whole incident i apologised to husna coz, i knew i kept going on and on about the top at the store awhile ago, and she said, "it's okay....i understand. im a Libran myself. we tend to get very indecisive. i always have regrets after buying stuff too,"

and there i was...thinking, questioning myself why do i tend to be very, very indecisive. i prefer other people making the decisions for me. and for unexplainable reason i need conformation from my close peers on everything! its very, very annoying!

thats why i hate it when people tell me "up to you la!" or "whatver u think is okay is fine with me..." or "ikut kau la!" or "suka hati kau la!" or anything yang sewaktu dengannya... i cant make decision for myself n some other monkey asking me to make decision for them? hell no!



so i did some reading i came across this, about the Librans



You’re born under the sign of Libra, which represents the element of air, or the intellect. You’re most definitely a thinker — you like to use your mind to tackle problems. Libra is the seventh sign of the zodiac, which refers to relationships of all sorts and your connection to the world around you.


People know you as someone who loves to socialise. Your outgoing nature and love of communicating brilliant ideas to people around you is one of your strengths. You’re rarely at a loss for words (*wink, wink for me)… even on your worst day you have the gift of the gab!


You not only have the ability to share your ideas in a very natural way; you also have charm in the way you convey your feelings. This is another of your very positive traits. Even people who don’t agree with what you have to say can’t resist you and will usually behave well around you — you’re simply a nice person. ( oh, how true that is!!)


Your love of communication makes you an excellent mediator and negotiator. Coupled with the fact that you’re always reasonable in the way you deal with people, this means your friends and co-workers can always depend on your having a balanced viewpoint, even in the fiercest of arguments.


In fact, if there’s a problem with you, it comes out of the fact that you’re so good at seeing all the sides of a problem and staying impartial. This makes it hard for you to commit to one side of an argument — you don’t want to be seen as biased, and you want everyone to like you!


What ends up happening is that the way you get everyone’s approval is by agreeing with everyone. This is not a good idea, because you’re agreeing to things for the wrong reasons: to keep everyone on side, rather than because you’re firmly committed to something. Try not to do this, because it can mess up your dealings with people. You don’t need to bend over so far just to be accepted.


Making decisions is an area in which you excel, but again, don’t jump to conclusions simply to please others. You have the ability to look at all sides of an issue, so use it. Sometimes you get stressed if you feel you’re being obstructed somehow. The answer is to get all the relevant facts; running off and asking others to support you will just confuse things.


And anyway, if you look inside yourself you’ll realise that you can rely on your own experiences. You don’t need to use others as a crutch for your decisions.


When you get to know people, you are perfectly comfortable sharing your feelings with them, and you’ll go to some trouble to make them feel at ease. You create harmony in your environment to match the harmony in your character.


This relates to the fact that your ruling planet is Venus. This is a soft and gracious planet, and feminine by nature. Your softer side is expressed in pretty much everything you do — the way you entertain guests, the type of home furnishings you like to buy, the clothes you wear and even your personal grooming.


All these things express the natural flair and grace which is part of that Venus temperament. There’s no way others won’t notice your style. People see you as elegant and tasteful (huhu!)— and that’s people who know you well as well as people who’ve just met you.


You often make a great first impression because you are such a good communicator and connect so easily with people; this makes you an ace networker. Some people believe you must have an ulterior motive because you are dealing with so many people at once, but it’s really just that you absolutely love socialising and partying. You are a real ‘people person’.


Because Venus is the planet of love, you seek love this in everything you do, and particularly in relationships. Finding your soulmate is a big dream, perhaps even your most significant life mission — you will go to great lengths to meet lots and lots of people. Who knows where you’ll find the right one? You have a lot to give to the person you feel is your perfect match.


Very few Librans find the peace and satisfaction they’re looking for until they’ve connected with that special person. Once this happens, they can really get into their work, family and other domestic affairs with energy.


There are three grades of Libra. Which of these do you fall under? You can figure it out by the date of your Libran birth.


If you're born between the 24th of September and the 3rd of October you are a true die hard Libran and have the qualities of Venus fully dominating your life. You are artistic, caring and full of love and social warmth. Venus provides you with loads of friends, perhaps too many at times.


Librans born between the 4th and 13th of October are a little wacky by nature but harmless. If that's you, life is a bundle of fun and you can expect the unexpected from time to time. You like the surprises that life throws at you.


The final portion of Libra occurs between the 14th and 23rd of October. Were you born during this time frame? If so, you are the type of Libran who is constantly on the hunt for knowledge and information. You are an eternal student who will never tire of learning news things. As well, you will never grow old as Mercury's co rulership of your life ensures a sprightly and youthful attitude.


Libra is a movable air sign, which means there’s creativity in you. You are quick to grasp ideas, and you have a need to produce works of art and unusual or original things. You bring a touch of art to anything you do. Remember to incorporate this part of you into all your life’s activities; you’ll be richly rewarded.


if u ask me...i'd say that describes me if not totally, i think more than half of it is true for me...ah well, the traumatising facts of being a Libran ;)

ANOTHER VIDEO

i know its a bit late but i just came across the video on you tube.....funny i must say.





i read some reviews about it in some blogs....well, i believe it is a humiliation to the country. obviously our minister did not handle it well. being the communication minister with an impressive background, he should be able to answer the questions well instead of throwing in accusations. i think at the end of the interview, the newscasters just gave up on him...


but i do not think that it is right for the Malaysians who are not living in the country to condemn by saying "thank god, im not living in the country,"...... or "this is why i dont want to have anything to do with Malaysia," what rights do these people have to say things like that? being a Malaysian and not contributing that's a personal choice. u cannot ask people to commit to something that they are reluctant to. but to say such vile things when u've done nothing to help what-so-ever, i think these people should be very ashamed of themselves. to rephrase it in malay, i'd say these people tak sedar diri!


every country has internal problems. the people who are living through it, going through it are the ones who have the right to speak. if u do not know a thing, i suggest u shut the hell up! dont appear out of nowhere when things turns chaotic and starts condemning instead of helping. just who the hell do u think u are?!!


sorry a bit emo.....im just too annoyed at these bunch of conceited monkeys who are just too damn cocky and think they are just too good compared to other people when in reality, they are the biggest fools who cant even use their pea-size brain to think clearly! i suggest these people to go back to wherever hole they come from and just disappear for good! just so that u know, ur opinions........................................are damn well not needed!!

PeRSoNaL DNA

as i was surfing the net a few days back i came across this test...pretty cool i think...so this is my result,

Benevolent Creator

and u can even get other people to psych u....meaning, u can get ur friends or family members to do the test and see how they evaluate u...cool...

so to psych me, here's the url: http://personaldna.com/psychyou-psychme.php?for=8c4abfb9af7a

GHASTLY!

goodness gracious! i spent the whole morning trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with my posting page....i was so frustrated i actually planned to cancel my blog here and start a new one in Xanga (until i realised that i have to pay pulak over there....) *sigh......no make it, *triple sighs!!!

all of the sudden my function buttons are all missing....how am i suppose to compose without the icons?? and the edit HTML function pun went missing too! went through all the hassle of emailing other bloggers for help...reading through the oh-so-long Blogger help (which doesnt even help at all!!) then i decided to reboot my pc coz the crazy internet explorer wont close and now, finally all the icons are back..................frustrating!!!

and not to mention my room is turning into a disastrous wreck coz instead of doing some cleaning, i spent my entire morning trying to correct my blog!...and thank goodness its raining right now, at least its not that hot.....heat definitely contributed a lot to make me loose my insanity!!

what a way to start my day......and its Christmas today so wishing all my friends

and....

and before i wrap this up...here's a little something for the day =)

my personal fav......enjoy!

wHaDDuP!

its been awhile (yes, im aware of that!) but bare in mind that i have my final exam to focus on! now that it's all well (literally speaking of course!) and done i finally get the chance to spend quality time here....so, lemme start with the stuff i found in you tube that is quite interesting....

ok, lemme start with Hindraf.....need i elaborate? i think not....
we all heard so many stories, so many versions in fact and lets face it, this is a never ending story. does it prove anything? only that people are now more brave and broad in expressing their thoughts. frankly speaking, im not a fan of rally, demonstration or anything of sort. however sometimes we need that in order to make certain people understand our needs and our determination....need to wake them up! so i guess 2 rallies in a less than a month is quite enough to make them realise how the citizen or rather the nation has evolved. the people represent the nation not a few people whom we call the cabinets or the party that was chosen to rule the country. back to back, it all comes down to the people....

okay...moving on to something more mind soothing (politics are just to stressful to talk about =( ) here is a song thats really nice...i remember its from a japanese show but i dont remember the title. one thing for sure is that i knew ive cried to this song before....walking down the memory lane shall we?

this one i know, its taken from a japanese show "with love". the first japanese show ive ever watched. and will always remember....




then finally, gowri sent me this interesting video from jeff dunham...its so funny i was laughing my head off....so here goes...

so thats all that ive got for the past 2 weeks...yes i know its very pathetic but at least there something right? oh ya another one was Live & Loud KL '07. i was really sad at first coz i didnt get to go considering that im stuck here in medan. i wanted so much to watch whitney houston live! however, after reading the reviews on her performance, i think i didnt miss anything at all. i was actually glad that i didnt watch her live so that she remains the all time diva forever and ever in my heart....=) okay, enough with the drama, thats about it. will update soon....bubye!