first things first....happy new year! hehehe....sorryla, i was so busy with my results (which i pass by the way!! yay!!!), and with my stuff to cargo (and that cost me 1.4mil!!!!........rupiah of coz) and of coz once im home, im all occupied with family and friends. Now that im here in Kepala Batas the oh-so-ulu-place! With no internet access, im trying my level best to keep posting and all…boy, its hard but I’ll try my best. Im going to try to recall everything that has happened since my last posting so, bear with me ya J
RESULTS, RESULTS, RESULTS!
guess what???on the day of my last posting, the results finally came out! it was right after i posted it, my friend called raving n ranting about her results. n me being me.....still being calm and collected though....hanya tuhan yang tau! my heart was racing and hammering till i think its gonna pop out then and there!i remember i was on the phone calming her down when i going crazy myself, putting on my baju kurung while in my heart reciting every prayers that i could think off. and finally we reached the faculty n i found out that i failed 3subjects but luckily for me, i still can repeat them in penang so it doesnt affect me. but my friend was in pretty bad shape and i really pity her coz ive been there before n i totally understand what shes going through....
then one thing happen that i just cant understand till now....
here u have one of ur friend worrying and on the verge of crying because of her unfortunate results and they u are ranting over the fact that u dont remember the last subject u took for exam???!!!! im sorry but hey.....erm, use ur brain la for god sake! ur friend is about to cry here coz shes in big trouble, if ure not even that considerate, can u just shut the hell up or just get ur ass out of there? i was so amazed by this stupid, annoying twit that i just cant think of anything to say then....of coz u can add the fact that i really dont like her (oh brother, that adds a lot definitely!) then, finally she saw that her friend was very sad, she decided to be nicer to her by saying, "dont worry la!" oh yeah....like that helps a lot!
the next day, more results came out and by noon i finally got all my results. for me, i think i did very well for myself....i worked very hard seeing that i took 25 credit hours last semester...if u only knew how much that was *sob,sob!!! and i pulled it off. failing those 3 subjects dont really affect me now coz i can still repeat them next semester but at least i passed my other subjects (those 3credits hours subjects) n i got B for biochemistry!! hehe....sorryla, maybe its just a B but it meant a lot to me ok? another B is for anatomy pathology! i felt like crying when i saw it......hehe.....drama there!
but thats not all the drama.....there is this annoying subject that i really dont like, metode penelitian. its a really crappy subject on research and stuff, i failed the subject with a D the first time i took it. so last sem i decided to try taking it again hoping that if i dont score at least i can pass with flying colours. to cut long story short, guess what i got in the end? an E!! can u believe it?? its just too much! i was so shocked when i saw it! okayla, even if i fail (considering that i think i screwed up for my mid sem) i do not think for one second of my precious life that i'd fail with an E!the idea of an E in the middle of my result certificate did not sit very well with me so i decided to write an approval letter from the assistant dean so i can re-check my paper. n Prof Guslihan, such a dear he always are, were so kind to sign it for me and told me to meet the head of the department. he even told me to ask the professor if theres any paperwork that i can do to upgrade my grade.
so i took the letter and head straight to the department with my friend n luckily i saw him down the hallway. so i asked politely if he can spare some time for me, and he frowned at me and ask, "what is it?" oh man....this dude! i asked him if he can re-check my paper n of coz, as predicted the lines on his fore head got deeper and he told me that he has many work to do and he has to go....i immediately took out the letter and gave it to him saying that i got an approval for the assistant dean for a re-check. then he stared at the paper and me back n forth....hmmm....he must have thought "damn this girl!" hehehe.....he took my letter and walked into his office with a very grumpy face. put his bag on the chair, walked straight into this small room and carried out this huge plastic bag filled with exam papers.then he sat on his chair and starts the 'killing me softly' session....
him: so u just took this paper or what?
me: no....this is my second time taking it
him: really? lemme see......(while looking at his lap top) so u think u didnt fail? what u think ure suppose to get?
me: well, i know i didnt do very well for it but nevertheless, i do not think i get as low as an E.
him: it says here u fail coz u didnt do ur group work project. (and lifting up his eyebrow all the same! sheeeesh!)
me: but i asked u after the first lecture if seniors can be excused from doing the project and u said yes...
him: yes i did....but its ur fault coz u didnt hand me the photocopy of ur previous result cert...
me: thats not true coz i remembered i gave it to u after the second lecture.
him: well, i dont think so coz its not here in the record. we kept all the photocopied certs and we actually numbered them.
then he called his assistant who then took this stack of photocopied certs...and while she was at it, both of them just cant stop talking at the same time about how very UNLIKELY that i gave it to them when its not recorded in his lap top. good lord these people! just get the damn certs will ya??
then she sat and started flipping through the certs and guess what? mine was the forth from front!!! take that a******!
me: there it is!
them: where?
me: the FORTH from front.
them: ohh........(at this point im so ready to kick one of those asses!)
him: ah well.....see? this is what happen when u students give me when im at the parking lot la, at the staircase la! get me all mix up!
eh, eh........apahal pulak nie??
me: erm....excuse me sir.but as i recall,i dont think i give it at THE PARKING LOT, or AT THE STAIRCASE. i think i gave it to u at the end of second lecture and we were still IN THE CLASS n u put it straight into ur bag.
him: ohhh...........hmm.....let me see, so i added ur mid sem n final results and u get a D. (then he turned to me and i swear to god he was smirking at me!) no difference, u still fail (the nerve he has!!!!)
me: well, there is a difference. at least my pointer increase.so u see, there is a difference. and whats my score if i may ask?
him: u got 58. (and thats 2 marks to C which means just one point! damn!!)
deciding to try my luck i asked,
me: erm, prof told me to ask you if theres a paperwork that i can do to increase my marks?
him: NO,NO,NO!i dont have time to do all that!u think its easy to mark all these papers?? ive got so many things to do....if i let u do this then i have to let other students do it too! NO!
what the hell is his problem???!!! he can just say it politely but did he? noooooooooooo.......instead he went ballistic! gosh!!!
so i went out but i was very glad that i got what i want, n my pointer did increase. some people i tell u!
PICKING UP CARGO
Dahla I spent so much in medan to cargo 3 years load of crap all the way home, when I had to pick it up, I had to deal with all these annoying, no manners men! What the hell is wrong with these men? Why cant they just behave like a well mannered gentleman should behave? Why oh why???
I thought men in medan are sloppy, but hey! To my horror the men in customs at LCCT are way worse than that! Its like they’ve never seen women before! Its just too difficult to understand! I want to explain the details but its been awhile ago, Ive forgotten most of it. But I remember going out of the place feeling so exhausted and flushed with anger at these barbaric men that I don’t even know where to begin.
This guy was actually talking about the amount of money he should give as ‘hantaran’ to wed me in front of my mum!!!! of course I was just too blur to realize what the heck he was crapping at that moment so I just shrug it off till my mum pointed it out to me in the car. And there was this other man who was blatantly staring at my mum like he’s going to eat her up right in front of me! I mean ,hello! Ure so damn old and yet u want to menggatal, do it some where else la! Not in front of the womans daughter! Damn stupid I tell u! my poor mum!
No one warned me that the procedures are going to be very difficult and troublesome. Going through all that has been very tiring, the stupid customs are making it so much worst. I am so not going through that again!
Let’s just say by the end of the day I’ve got 7 unknown numbers miss calling me thanks to the cargo agent in medan who printed my name, address and phone number on all my boxes!
FINALLY MOVING ON
Its been awhile for me to accept this but im finally moving on. All the waiting and anticipating has finally over. now, im ready to accept the truth that has been staring straight to my face all these months. When u really want to believe in something so much, its amazing the extend that ur heart goes through to accommodate u. in the end of the road, I ask myself, is it all worth it? and the answer is yes, it is! Ive finally come to the realization that maybe its not meant to be if not forever then maybe for now. But deep in my heart I wish that i can have the chance again, not to repeat the things ive done or try to change it but I just want to really end it the right way.
But it all has been a very memorable journey. I think I mature so much from all this. It has definitely thought me lot. If theres something so bitter that has ever happen in my life that I would never trade for anything, it would be this. It made me realize the things that matter the most in my life, changes the way I handle things, open me up to a whole new perspective and I feel like I grew so much from this experience. Thank you, for appearing in my life even for awhile. Thank you for teaching me so much about life, thank you for being there when ure not even there, thank you for everything……..i’ll never forget….
KEPALA BATAS
The new journey begins…..yeah, very cliche, I know….i think im entering the new phase of my life. kepala batas, kepala batas…..whats there to talk about the town? Let me start by saying that the town is just oh-so-developed as it is, the only available hotspot here is in BANGUNAN UMNO CAWANGAN KEPALA BATAS! Oh no!!!!!!!
Its just too much to take! But I can get wi-fi in my campus so I think that should be okay. Last semester I have internet in the comfort of my own room and now that im in this ulu-fying place (no offense to people from kepala batas of coz) with no internet connection, it feel like apart of my soul has been ripped off me! And now that my friend has got himself the USB port for internet that works as a modem from celcom, im so temped to get it so I think I have to start saving from now….sigh!
Not really much to describe about the place. Many palm oil trees, many cows, many training centers, many schools, many bus stops (but unfortunately not many buses) and last but not least many and I mean MANY Pak Lah with dad and grandad pics all over the town. Its really funny……I was in a restaurant having dinner when I first reach Kepala batas and I saw a picture of 3 men with a super big picture of a man wearing a ‘serban’ in the middle. And on top of their heads was the phrase ‘cemerlang, gemilang, terbilang’. I was like, okay, damn semangated this people I tell u!hard core to the max!!
Then there was the campus. I think its okay. Not bad actually. It’s a renovated shop lot but I think its very well renovated. The main campus is already built, just waiting to be launched. I wonder if it will be launched next semester. But I think I have no problem with the current place. Its not like when I had to go to KUTPM long time ago. That one was very awful! They don’t even bother renovating the building. And to top it all, there was an electrical shop located in between the two shop lot faculties! Man!!
As for food I think its okay. Still haven’t taste the best nasi kandar yet, but in time I will…… the char kuey tiaw near my house is really nice and there are a few places that I like too...but then again when it comes to food, im very flexible and adventurous as well, so food has never been a very big problem to me….
My place in Putra Villas, well I think its not bad. Kinda nice……im staying with aimi and husna. I know them pretty well, so its not a big problem to me too. I have aniza and aireena next door and with aniza next to my window, I can say that its very comfy. The people who understands me are nearby and to be frank I think it makes transition so much easier.
Campus life here???
I don’t really know where to start. I guess its okay. Ive sat for pharmacology paper last week. Class from Monday to Friday. Exam on Friday. Its very hectic I must say. Now its starting to feel like im really in medical line. I finally feel like a true medic student. Wait till the clinical starts, that sure adds up a lot! I met a few people that is very prominent in the campus that ive heard so much about. I finally met DDT a.k.a Dato’ Dr Tajuddin which so much reminds me of my dad. That old man sure knows how to whine! I don’t know who the hell he is but oh brother, the whining and all? sigh……I hope I wont be seeing him for a very long time…..then there was DBD a.k.a Dr Badrul and Dr Eddie, the coordinator. DBD is pretty good I think. He treats the students like his friends and I think its very nice. As for Dr Eddie, not many good reviews about him but ive yet to find out for myself.
So to conclude, that’s the only significant thing that I can think off that has happened these past few weeks. I have other things that I would like to blog here but that’s for later. For now, I think this is it…will be updating on a fight that happened on Monday. Its getting late now, maybe tomorrow then….chioz!
